Girl with the Wings

Sunday, April 01, 2007

My sincere apologies to everyone whom been waiting for me to update my blog! My sincere apologies to you. Here's a collage of pics that has been happening when I am away.

(Was taken outside the house after Fazli wedding. Hmms. . Was flattered by Suffi comment :)

he was overwhelmed that for once he saw me in baju kurung n he said i was looking angelic and sweet. Very pweety :) Tha wedding was great! Tha food was nice! Can mummy cook nasi jagung for my engagement? hmms. . berangan lah kau nur! berangan)

( Candid shot! K.P.O bf of mine! Auntie slipper tercabut pun nak tengok )

(Pizza Hut here we come!)

(Don't ask me what was that for! He's enjoying every bites

of the pizza ;) )

(With this sickening face of mine, i was too tired and

exhausted. But hey i finished every drops of PEPSI)

(At last finished FOOD! *BURP*)

( BABY! The most adorable,cutest Toddler i have ever seen)

(Met Shaks on 2nd April at 10pm just to pass an early birthday prezzie for her!

hahahahs!!got a wet-juicy kiss from her on ma cheeck ;) )

There's just too many explanation about my decision and my life if you were to ask me to dictate it to you. I could only accept every test he is giving me. Be it Wealth,Love,Family and work.

I don't have a choice but to accept every test he gave me with open arms. He would left my mum right by my side to listen, educating me with advices and being the total guidance throughout this rough journey of mine. Drops of tears means nuthang to me right now but its conquering every problems and standing up tall. Fighting off the fierce battle I am facing with PRIDE & DIGNITY!

Mummy has wrote down such an emotional yet an over-whelming post in her blog which makes me shed tears of happiness and relieved at least i have someone whom is dearest to me for a shoulder to cry on. Time flies so fast and today is the day i have been fully educate a CERT- APPRECIATING A MOTHER'S LOVE. People in any decision I will be making in a year or two to come, please don't get upset with me. I hope i get the best wishes from all of you, especially each and every individuals from my family members.

I tried to make everything simple, I have tried my very best to ensuring the love of my life to understand my problems and what I have been through. It's true what most mothers would say. I have totally agreed to this sentence" MOTHER'S KNOW THEIR CHILDREN THE BEST; NO MOTHER'S WOULD HATE THEIR CHILDREN." I have hereby admit, gleaming with pride I have someone like her in my life. Kids, every messages your parents tried to convey to you will be effected in ya near future. Heed their advice.

To Mummy,

Let's put the past behind us. My sincere apologise from me to you in whatever i had done. Reflecting on the past, those were my growing up stages which to now its the BIGGEST regrets of my life. Please be always by my side. Without my grandparents, ya my one and only crying shoulders. Without your 'DOA' and blessing i would a lost soul. I love you mum. I love you very much. Mwaacks!

Sayang, I will always be by your side. Whatever plans ya having for 2008, don't get too excited cause its still not confirmed. By December 2007 I will give you the answers. with ur care and concern and those warm hugs i got from ya, I felt secured. I miss You dearie. I'm totally missing you.

Till here everyone.

To Han, I Miss u too.

Good Day everyone.

Nur Sanoritas OUTS!

Labels: Chronicles Of live

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

Heyas Fellows Blogger! Been Going tru a rough times those weeks back then. Aint gonna elaborate much but oh well thanks to tha entetainment n passes for all tha fabulous movie screening, m much betta by spending much time with my family. Honestly guys, M lookin forward to spending much more time with them. Call me a homie or family girl right now. . But heys! This cant be help as m growing and to be frank, my FAMILY is filled with so much love, compassion and concern. Ma mummy been there for me for all this rough times m going tru. . If aint for her m aint gonna pull maself up. I was putting an upfront of happiness but deep inside, its sorrowness thats lingering upon ma soul. I could really count with my fingers friends of whom i could depend on. Sadly but true, true friends will appear out of nowhere like an guardian angel whom flaps their wings to ya rescue. They doesnt seems to mind how long u been forgettting them cause part of u and tru those times u spend together was priceless. Kinda ironic but true.

Few days ago, ma guy was totally ill. M aint letting this battle of tha "sickness" stops till hes fully cured. Its affecting hes work. Its affecting us. Its affecting our financial. Its affecting hes reputation.
During each phone conversation, i would allowed ma tears streaming ma cheecks, m silently crying. Tha tears was unstoppable. I manage to just said yesh and no. I felt like i wanna run to Bukit Batok and stayed by his side.

Suffi was so weak and fragile. His eyes was swollen especially right below his eyes. Hes running a high fever. He cant even lift a cup properly. He cant speak properly. Hes feeling remorse for taking too many MC and He cant get hes pay. Hes in a deep dilemma. He was breathless and half tha conversation i could only heard him trying hard to breath and venting tha frustation all to himself. I wish I could help but what could i do? I could only lift hes spirit up. Stay by his side.
"ya allah, kuatkanlah iman dan pulihkan segala penyakit insan ya ku sayangi atas kejahatan manusia"

I have lost ma hope on going back to school judging this situation right now. Ma dreams are shattered during this period of time. . I could only work and work, this time is ma responsibility to take care of him, hoping he would get well soon, once hes fully recovered , insyaallah our finance would be stabilise back again. I wouldn't be pinning on hopes and dreams for a birthday celebration nor our yearly celebration but all i know, nuthang will change ma mindset to make hes birthday a memoriable one. I wanna surprised him. His celebration would be full of surprises ;)

I did mention on tha first paragraph i been watching movies right?? these are the movies i have catch truout tha new releases in MARCH. In tha courtesy of HMV!

DREAMGIRLS

Treated mummy, aunt and cuzzy to this movie! If ya a musical kinda person, u will find this movie totally pure entertainment! Its mind blowing with tha powrful vocals of Jennifer Hudsons and Beyonce to ride u tru tha whole movie!! A twist of tha story of what's been happening during the ERA of SUPREMES! Beyonce is DIANA ROSS while Jennifer plays tha estraged member(damm i forgotten tha name) whom actually in real life died at tha edge of mid-30 due to drugs.
i'll rate this 8 Popcorns!!

PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS

This is based on a true story of Chris Gardner whom now owns a huge multi billion dollars firms! When everythang fails and not enough penny to survive with his wife Linda left him thinking hes good for nuthang aftar whom both of them wasted all their saving into buying BONE-DENSITY machine which they doesnt find out that clinics and hospital finds this machine unnessasary! With his strong will-power, he carries a machine everywhere he goes in a hope of making a living. There he met a met whom a stock-broker and he went for 6 months training internship. He passed tha test. A truly inspirational story of all times.
Girls prepare ya tissue ;)
I'll rate this 7 Popcorns!(due to tha fact that tha plot at tha beginning was dry)

300

A superb artistic picture screening! Tha fights was mind blowing! It totally follows tha comics and tha cast and crew has done a splendid performances! Ma whole workplace been complimenting on 300 each and everyday we seen each other!! Its was soo much marvelous!!
I'll rate this 10 Popcorns! can help it guys!! nothing imperfect on this movie and its was well done ;)

MUSIC AND LYRICS

A comedy, sweet and romantic movie! M a big fan of Drew Barry Moore and Hugh GRant! Its a pure entertainment with songs to serenate ya heart! Catch this with ya BF or GF. U guys would be cuddling and holding each others hand truout tha whole movie! U guys just cant seem to let it go ;) Hopelessly romantic :)
I'll Give this 7 POpcorns!

STOMP THE YARD

a Typical dance kinda movie eversince TAKE THE LEAD was produced! STep-Up follows and now STOMP THE YARD. Well u would be entertain but tha plot was expected. Its kinda like DRUMLINE dance version. Great storming and dance movies but being a movie buff aftar catching so much movies in life, tha plots doesnt seems to catch ma heart but its still a thumbs up though ;)
I'll rate this 6 Popcorns!

Aites guys, Till here than!

Nur SAnoritas, OUt!
Mwaaacks!

Labels: Love, Movie reviews

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Thursday, March 01, 2007

Aloha pe0ple!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! M back! Today was such a great day!!!!!!! met up with dee and hirin! had a great outing aftar years of catching up! its was great!! misses them! i love u both!! so when to PAstamania and haf a coffee at COFFEE BEAN!! Dee went shopping at MANGO while m shopping for ma dearie beach shorts. . . .its time for a new one ;) its kinda irony when u met ya besty aftar a long time and even with that duration of time thangs between us nevar change :D Hirin and Dee and matured over the years but its still tha crazy us. . too bad FIra doesnt joined us . u misses tha fun baby . . . M lookin for tha next time of tha month m seein them. .this time with Fira. . i wanna shop shop shop. .

Bump into few familiar faces. .its kinda funny when i recalled ma secondary past. . its humourous :)

At 6pm met ma Beloved MUMMY, ma cuzzy and aunt to catch DREAMGIRLS! its was fantastic! tha best musical i have seen so far! oh ma gosh! JENNIFER HUDSONS! her voice was extraordinary! I could just open up mouth and said " WOW" "WOAH"

Please m pleading all of u to catch dreamgirls!! please catch it cause its musically incline, when u left tha theathre u will have tha feelin, "you wanna boogie" lingering tru ya body ending urself with an experience u would nevar forget ;)

Heres are tha pics of tha day!

Hirin & Dee

ME n Dee (i hated ma face here but oh well DEe Loooked FAB!)

US 3 beauties!!

ME & Hirin!

Hirin & DEe (arent they looookin sweet?)

Me & Hirin AgaIN!!

Me & DEe again!!!

Last But not least. . Me n HIrin again!!

Huney gotta b at work each and everyday with a restday every SUNDAY! misses him soo soo much!! absolutely! i love him!! i love him!!! LOve of my life, please enlighten me to this world of yours full or tenderness, care and love. . ya ma one and only sweetheart . .i mean it. . i swear. . mwaacccks!!

baby i made a vow to maself, if all those sacrifices is worth making for,

i swear to ma life dearie, watever i do, is only for u. . .

M counting tha daes to hap a fabulous outing with ma dearie sec besty, Ma cuzzy azie ira MUMMy n Zainah Zain!!!! Tha feelin of togetherness was a feelin that i can nevar describe. . i love u guys n MOHD SUFFI! i misses u!

good day guys. . dreamgirls okies????

Labels: Fab outin DREAMGIRLS

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Saturday, February 10, 2007

wheesh people!! alrites i know m aint updatin ma bloggy for a long time. . these are tha answers to ya curiosity. . . for ma avid reader, my apologies. . .

* ma computer broke down!!

*i dun have any camera phone for picture taking!!! grrr!!

*bad injury until its infected. . (open wound. . no skin but flesh!!)

*ma leg swollen!

*due to infection has high fever n lost ma voice!!

*depression mode!! m soo stress up!

UPDATES:

Huney has quited hes job. I guess its gonna be a burden if we both work in tha same workplace. Honestly m getting agitated with those people whues making our relationship to hard to manage. I was seriously frustated. Its either me or him. . in the end i choose him cause its for tha best. So for now. . totally on tight budget. He promised me to get tha cash for my studies in a week or two. Hmm. . m praying hard.

Dear. . . thinking of u taking a break could give me tha hope of u spending much more time with me, have a long chat with me tru phonecalls. . i totally seriously misses that feeling when u were trying so hard to court me. Honestly dearie we are losing those affection. I need those attention. I cant always be tha one giving in. I cant.

Instead u went fishing with ur friends, played soccer. I understand. We always divided our time between friendship and relationship. We have always draw tha line. I have given u enuff space. I dunno how much more space must i spared which satisfy ur freedom. Honestly dearie, i don't.

I was shocked u didnt even informed me till i give you a call ya staying over at ya friends house to have ya gaming session. At least informed. I was sadden by u.

Aftar so much sacrifices i made for u during tha battle in tha workplace. How much humiliation and arguments we went tru. I succeded to be tha water, i give in to u. Not a single argument of ours lasted long cause i gave in. I am not trying to "ungkit" but hey at least show me some appreciation.

U are having ya break, this tha only time we could get together like meet up 2 -3 times a week, have a lullaby conversation at night. . . i miss it so much. . cant u gave me those feelings back just during ya break cause soon u are starting work. We wont have time for each other anymore. I miss u.

Yesterday outing was great. I do really misses him. We dun wanna watch movie, instead meet ma bro at orchard to get ma mummy's birthday prezzie. Get ma QUESADILLAS at TACO BELL! Yum YUm!! N grab our beloved seats at MC CAFE ;) yesh thats where we always went out on a date. . . he would play ma psp while me reading a book trying to relax as i lean ma head on his shoulders. . we would stop to chat and continued with our activities or played tha game together in some intervals. He's hooked to ma SPOTS with my SUPERB DUPERP GIRLFWENS!

Now thinking of yesterday's outing m aint angry with u darling but m still frustated. . yesh these is gals . . . u earn them as ya GF u treat them well. . never neglect them!! but nevertheless huney. . . i am still deeply in love with you. I love u many many aites??

mwaacckss!!

ps: I NEED INTEVENTION, ATTENTION TO STOP TEMPTATION TO SCREAM!!

Labels: I loved him but i need more than just love.

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Saturday, January 27, 2007

nuthang much to say. . . m just feeling frustated, dissapoint and totally sadden. . . .

good day guys!

mwaacks!

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Saturday, January 13, 2007

Aloha people! At last aftar a week and a half aint

meeting ma huney. . we managed to squeeze out time and meet up for today! Dearie went for reservist n m telling u guys one thang m proud of, I CAN SURVIVE! lols! to be frank aftar i started working i haf change some of ma principles and opinions in tha sense of how i shoud be treated by my partner. .trust me. . all ma fairy tales dreams was scrapped of ma love dictionary. Dearie works for 14 hours wheres me according to shift. . its hard to meet and manage our time and schedule. By tha time we wanna chat, its a mere 10-15 minutes talk. . now i have totally understood this quote, " WHEN YA IN LOVE, THERES SOME SACRIFICES TO BE MADE"

I cant blame him tha way he treated me during hes reservist period. . . we talk as if we are friends. . we just dated. . yea obviously he stills gave me those virtual good night kisses, confessing hes love n hes misses. . . theres nuthang to blame him. . u cant expect ur partner to gave hes attention to u each and every minutes. . even at work. . only 2-3 sms was exchange cause he understood i cant be disturb at work but deep in our heart. . we misses each othar ; counting each and everyday for our date. He told me just now, "allow me to focus on my job. . only when i felt too tired i would request for my off day, if not i will continue working. I hope you understand. i need to stabilise ma income. U could still visit me during ma break time. We are still in tha same company. Dun worry n dun thang differently. I wouldn't go to othar gals. I sygkan u. . non othars. . we will try this way now. . alright? "

i felt like a spank i was getting. I just nodded. I could only patiencely waiting for him to ask me out on a date. I wont ask any. FULL-STOP. Its heavy for my heart to accept that decision but what can i do? Hes in a dilemma in between work and juggling this relationship. I realised i wont have a listening ear each n every night. But oh well i still have ma devoted dearies of ma life RAHIM,HANIF! Rahim especially will always be there for me. God knows how much tears of mine has has captured n rescue ;) . Hes new working hours could just kill everything but i know i love this guy and i will endure all this cause i believe there will be a joyous moments in tha future which we both would shared. Tha rest i leave to god . . Insyallah.

I know how much he hated movies. I was shocked n taken aback when he ask me put for a movie. Went to VIVOCITY!He brings me out for a movie though he hated visiting tha theatre! I was an avid theatre fan! Any movies name it! I will watch it!. . but ever since m with him . . i guess m not. i just watched code 1 dvds at ma workplace. . had a great time with him . . was all those sacrifices i made worth for this relationship? ONE ANSWER TO MASELF " QUESTION MARK ??? "
Ma only wish He could open up hes eyes n observed me. Seriously dearie, i have changed alot for us. But please dun take this happiness of mine away. It was hard for me trying to be tha water but m getting used to it. I'm just proud that never once we shouted or argued in a rude n dis-respectful manner. Its always some babbling and ended in an hour or two. I guess thats me in any relationship and he never once make used of me or think bout lust. Theres tha respect that was given to me. If we are married, thats a different things. M blessed. Alhamdullillah. Ma prayer was answered.

Oh well i bettar stop babbling bout tha chronicles of ma relationship. All i know is m not pinning so much hope in him cause any time ur journey of ur love life could be a U-TURN. Tha hardest thing in life at this stage of age m getting in relationship. I would laugh at ma peeps who tried to make their relationship looks so perfect cause tha most perfect relationship is a failure in return. I have learned tha quote long ago. Its time for me to move along :)

Anyway guys. . heres are tha pics of him during hes reservist period,

Cute isnt he? hahahahs!!! ;p

okie peeps! thats all tha pictures! theres more. . but i guess its enuf for now!!
u guys have a great day ahead and take care. . . .

P.S: HE'S MA SECTION COMMANDER: LANCE COOPERAL! lols!!
Love him to bits. . . .

With so much Love,
Nur Sanoritas

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