Friday, February 11, 2005
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wonderful idea...
3:48 AM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
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wonderful idea...
3:24 AM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
CHaPtErz II Ofz YEzTArDAyz ++ EArLYz INz THa MaWNINz TOdAyZ ...
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THeNz HE asKEdz MI ... " sO waTz YA COnclUsiOnz" ... THa TEaRz iz cHOkINz Ma ThrOATz ...I waNNaz cRYz BUtz i TRY NoTZ ...
THeNz He sTaRTz THA COnVERsatIOnz .. I waZ sHOCkedZ aTZ WaTZ he TOldZ mI ..
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he GIPz MI 3 DAYz To fORGeTZ ....
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THanKz TO aBGz RasHIdI, aBGz BAshIdz n THa GAnGz!! LUpz U GUyz! MmmWWWaaCCCkz! MA GUyz Iz FOrTUNatEz TO HAPz U!!
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wonderful idea...
4:00 PM
HeYZ PeePZ ...HMMmz.. HOwZ LiFEz?? GreAtz? LIFEz Iz FULlz OFz UPz n dOWnz ... sO TRyz TO CAtCHz UPz WiTz TAtz aITEz??
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THa wERDz BREaKZ UPz JUzTZ AppEarz INz MA MINdz...
i JUztZ CAnTz sTAndz n TAkEz THa FIGHtz anIMOREz ...
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