Girl with the Wings

Friday, January 20, 2006

I HAVE LET MA CHEST OUT! I HAVE EMPTIED MA LUNGS OUT! I WANNA SHOUT OUT LOUD!!!!!! OH dIaNa! aku SUnGGuH HapPY! LOl!

DiaNA. . DUn LEaK anYTHanG aITe? ITs BItWeeN Us. . SsshhhSSS. . .

OKies Dee. . GUeSS u KNOw whats ma answer right? YEap. . . GUeSS riTe. . . i realised i hap to let it out and start a new life for 2006!

People changed for tha better and so am I. . . 2006 feels great! i love u 2006!!!!

GUys to thang about it. . . im a happier person right now! Tha feelings is much more realiving and im found tha dream and a perfect guy for ma life. . . how great can tat be?

when ya in love. . thangs took a turn . . . . u tend to become a better person, a change for a lifetime . .
Ok so lets talk about ma synopsis of tha day ;)

Was supposed to teach tuition when thangs took out a turn. . .
Mit hunney at interchange to pass to him ma bag for his work tha next day. He looked rathar Shag. . was having a bad flu n fever. . LOL. . . pIty u. . . so we sat down talking seriously at AFGHANISTAN bus stop . . i was waiting for bus 12 . . all was packed and heavy traffic jam was overflooding tampines! Grrr. . . how much i hated that. . . talk about his school and ma " DILEMMa" thingy. . gosh. . i just cant put ma legs forward to tha bus n go for ma tuition. . he kissed ma shoulder n told to me cancel it. . well i did that cause i find it not a point to go. .looking at tha traffic and ma situation right now. . so we walked to TAMPINES MALL. . LOl. . i just love walking with him. . i dunno. . we could walk for 5 longs hours talking a joking without feeling lethargic. .

Went to TOYS R US. . we just had so much in common. . hahas! we played wit tha toys n oh we just cant stop looking at those cute little babies . . . they are so adorable. . we touch them and play wit them . . its just a kid in me. . LOL. . up till now im surrounded wit childish peeps!! WE sit outside pastamania and had a great talk. . MAn . . . just enjoyed those time with him . .we experienced nature. . . HAhahahas!! Right Baby?

Wanna meet ma aunty and take ma roller blades but she watch MEMOIR OF A GEISHA! Ma story!! Idiot!! LOL! Its okie i could take it some othar time. . . perhaps monday right huney?
LUp U ManY ManY! MwwAAccks!

NExt TRip baBY! FISHING!!! HhahasS!!

HanIF! WHENS OUR ICE SKATING DAY?

LOl! . .

DEe MIsH U DaA. . LOl . . . Thanks for being there for me . . . I love u. .

BAby i love u. . thanks. . its true. .when u know that someone had a crush for u for long . BUT BY BIT U WILL FALL 4 IT. . . If we are meant to be. . .

TAke Care everYOne! PinKies SanOriTas. . SiGnInG OFf. . MwwaaCCks!

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5:53 PM

Thursday, January 19, 2006

(Kelly)
I love you and I need you
Nelly, I love you, I do,
Need you
No matter what I do....
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you
(Nelly)
Uh-uh
I met this chick and she just moved right up the block from me
And she got the hots for me, the finest thing i'd ever seen
But oh, no, no, she got a man and a son doh-oh, but that’s okay
‘Cuz I wait for my cue and just listen, play my position
Like a shortstop, pick up e’rything mama hittin’
And in no time I better make this with her mine and that’s for sure
‘Cos I-I never been the type to break up a happy home
But uh there’s something ‘bout baby girl, I just can’t leave alone
So tell me, ma, what’s it gonna be
She said, “You don’t know what you mean to me,”
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you
Uh-uh-uh-uh
I see a lot in your look and I never say a word
I know how niggas start actin trippin out here about they girl
And there’s no way-hey-hey Nelly gon' fight ova no dame as you could see
But I like your steeze, your style, your whole demeanor
The way you come through and holler, and swoop me in his two-seater
Now that’s gangsta and I got special ways to thank ya,
don’t you forget it
But uh it ain’t that easy for you to pack up and leave him
But uh you and dirty got ties for different reasons
I respect that and right before I turned to leave
She said, “You don’t know what you mean to me,” come on
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you
Sing it for me, Kelly
I love you and I need you
Nelly, I love you, I do
And it’s more than you’ll ever know
Boy, it’s for sure
You can always count on my love
Forever more, yeah, yeah
East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(‘Cos you don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you
East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right
East coast, you’re still shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, you’re still swingin’ right
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you
Yeah, yeah
East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right
East coast, you’re still shakin’ right
Down south, I see you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, you’re still swingin’ right.
oh

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6:07 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

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7:25 PM

Its funny right how it seems when things turn to a point when ya desperate for money, desperate for fashion and DESPERATE OF LOSING WEIGHT! Ma lawlin dared me to shed 5kg by our 2nd Year Anniversary! Aww! Its coming nearer and closer to me! Im nervous for tha surprise! Better gip me a good one! Last year was shedding 10kg and i manage it! Hail to tha queen! This year 5 kg. . not bad. . but i will be sweating in tha gym again for u! Honey this is for u.. . . this shows every drops of tha sweat is just for U! Im in love with you! DeePlY as a fact!

Known u for 5 whole years. . chatted wit u. . HATED you to tha extreme but yet fall in LOVE WITH YOU DEEPLY as times to come. . Whats all this? IS this an insane world? Perhaps its FAITH. . .

23 Febuary! Im feeling so nervous. . . tha Hagen Daaze Date with tha gigantic Winne tha Pooh is an unexpected apology date. . ROMANTIC n could make me cry. . i go GI GI GA GA! lol!

Dawlin, theres too many expression and words i could describe tha sweet bitter memory of our relationship but for all I know U R THA ONE FOR ME. . .
i could really count how many fights we had in between this journey of ours. . but theres too many happy moment lasting for us to cherish!

In 2 months time ma hubby will be getting a car! He booked his TP 29 march! Honey! That was fast! Now we been looking tru cars cataloge and pricing via internet. . . Daddys getting car for him . . ITS HIM TO DECIDE! But since i am tha lady boss. . i do have a share in tha decision right? ;) hehehes.. . .

I have an apointment on wednesday! i decided to join CARDIO WORKOUT! how great will that be? u tell me. . . LOL! i'm going to look good! Yesh i do!!!

Ok so last year was candel light dinner after team park! LOL! Tha memories stays vividly in ma mind!

I love u huney. . I should never let u go. . promised.. . .

LUp u many many! MwwaaCKs!

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6:01 AM

Sunday, January 08, 2006

" Nur count your blessings for tha onces who love u. . U have felt tha love that not any individuals get, UR GRANDPARENTS LOVE. Such a affection love by grandparents are rare and unique. They bid goodbye to u to anothar world is to see u to be somebody. U got to be strong and move on with life. U have me,Hanif,Ur guy. . just count ur blessing. Ya a strong character and that will lead u on. .stay strong babe"

I remember that faithful sentence by ma aunt. . That inspires me to move on with life. Im living in a flamboyant life without a direction to decide. Many will see me as a cheerful character. Someone that cluld brighten your day. But y it seems outraged enough my own FAMILY treated me as disgusting creature? Is it my fault? Do i have to change? To be frank enough, im clueless. . . .

Hanif came to ma house today . . THanks HAN for making ma day! I felt so deserted. Im not in talking terms with my mum.. been mute towards each othar for 2 weeks and i felt immune it. I didnt realise ma bro and ma lil sis been so rude towards me until today. Ma heart felt a prang n felt liked being spank. Arsyi is tha only loved one i can count on. Bahri was acting liked a mat rip. He went out with ma mum and obviously his mind been poison. Y of all people ma bro? Y does he hap that egoistic character that can never be replaced? Y is he so cold to me? Im speechless. . hes too influenced that he tinks hes doing everythang rite. He talks to u that he knows everythang . . he sweet talk ma mum but behind he still went drinking. He has an empty vessels but made tha most noise. He uses strenght to shud me up. SO Y THA FUCK I NEED TO BE THA OLDEST SISTER? Nobody respects nor listen to me. He can beat and scold vulgar to me without a sense of apologising. . Y? Cause ma mum allow it. Y does IFFAH being a bitch to me? BECAUSE MA MUM ALLOW IT! But when she cried and tellt tha whole bout me? Tha story changes and ma life damages!

I dont bother myself telling tha truth to tha jury because i believe im being influence to this motto of ma aunt , " THA TRUTH WILL B OUT SOMEDAY". Ma aunt could choose to be rotten by tha scamp news or believing tha innocense. I dun blame them to believe my mum cause they have a choice and i refuse to judge.

Im financially unstable. I got to sell of ma phone for my own financial security. Drops of pearls flowing ma eyes. . y does ma life got to be this way? BUT HEY! IM STRONG AINT IT? i dun have a circle of friends around me lending their shoulders to cry on. . sometimes even ma guy dun hap tha time. So y depend on them? I'll just hap to struggle. Im a social person but i refuse to keep mum on ma life. Ma tears are dried long time ago. Its time for me to look forward and believe in tha word sacrifice. I work and save tha cash. Only necessities of urs will b bought.

I dun need those skeptical look nor tha nacarsistic comment. Shut ur fuck up! IM alone and im happy with it. . . I too can make a choice of ma own living. And i choose INDEPENT.

Han i promised u, i will be a good mum and thanks for those couraging words. God thanks f0r blessing me external love. PLs grand me tha right path and prove to those villians im SOMEBODY IN THA FUTURE.

Im not writing this to show my pitiful life which seems absurb enough. Im fortunate to still be blessed by love. There are othars thats struggling without family, kin or friends. To all whoes reading this, Thanks for spending some time with me and share a bit and patch a piece of love to me. I love you guys.

To busu and Han, Im blessed to have u. . I love u. .
To B: IM SO IN LUP WIT U. . .

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6:04 AM

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Hey PeEps! BeeN BUsy at werk lately! Today i aint cumin to werk. . . was too sick! for two bloody days i been talking to customer in ma DRAG voice! Yesh! I had a bad sore throat that i dun know how to describe it! Ma clique was laughing and making fun of me! IDIOT! Yati was calling me transversite! Wat tha heck yati! U wanna me to strangle u issit? Brandon ma boss was joking n humour me all this while! We hap anothar new worker. . no infact two of them! CHERRIE N MABEL! Welcome on board to JT MANAGEMENT CONSULTANCY! was missin Cheryl actually . . until she show up aftar lunch time! We has this crazy indian customer! Who talks about INDIA all tha time! I have been humour by him! Hahahahs!Until i lost ma voice! Sell ma hp for 100 bucks cause i seriously need cash! Im independant rite? hahahas! Gip everyone a packet of Ricola! TOday actually suppose to bring potato chips so everyone can share! Im not there for this miny potato chips party :(

Aftar getttin this job i have 4 calls from all tha jobs i have applied to come to work! Come on! aftar a week or two u gip me a reply? How long must i wait? Too bad people! First u wan mandarin speaking rite? Now u think i hap potential? Ahh fuck it. .

Lunch was great! Had nasi padang! N i taste this POWER pineapple tarts and CHEESE BANGKIT! ma stomach was so full! i stole alot of sample! Kiasu me! Hahahahs!!!

CAnt wait for my pay! I hap to save monay for ma 2 years aniversary giff! What shall i buy 4 him? HMm B! stop peeping! i wun tell u! Bluek! LUp u ma Baby! Must look good on our posh restaurant celebration kie? Cyg U! Mwwwaaaccks! Hug u tite!!! ;)

OKie people! Guess i got to go now! Gonna teach tuition in tha aftarnoon! Lup u all many many! Dee n Hirin especially! How are u guys lately? Tag ma board lah u pantat! Hhahas!

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6:39 PM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Hey peeps! Okie lets make it quick! Its 8.21am and i hap 9 mins to blog! Gonna get ready for work!

Work yesterday was great! Infact it went incredibly fine! I met ma clique! There r Kak Yati,Ct and Cheryl! Ma boss is Brandon! At first i was feeling kinda awkward since im tha fist to come to tha office! Brandon asked hows ma new year and stuff, to me it seems like an ice-breaker. Ct came in last for the new comer but damm im shocked! Shes from BMC TANJONG KATONG! what a small world! She told me many appliied for this position but only 3 of us was choosen!

Tha office was filled wit laughter! I didnt realise i was making people laughing their heads off! OK. . what can i say! Ma crazy attitude right? Handling some funny customer. . asking for China GIrls and flirting wit you on tha phone! That was hilarious for me! Whats best is that it was my first call and first sale! I hit tha sales straight away! BRANDON was impressed and rise ma pay to 8 bucks per hour for tha day! New comers 5 bucks! Hopefully today i will get 9 bucks per hour!

Tha songs on tha player was mostly LADIES NIGHT OUT cd and all happening songs! So i danced in tha office and keep on singing! Man im just crazy! Cheryl said i was jovial and cute! :) Kembang aku sikit! hahahahs! and she said im preety matured in ma thinking! :)

Lunch was at LAU PA SAT! Tha had coffee and tha most delicious chocolate in ma office! How can i not munch to a chocolate in a day? Tell me? Its forever ma fave! Werk finishes at 4.30pm! Huney picked me up and we went to catch Family stone! Darn it sucks! N i was having a fever suddenly! Stupid sickness ! Go away!

Dee glad to hear ya bump into Hirin! Lucky u ;)

I gotta go! Shower and Get ready! Gd day for me today!

Lup U all!
MWaaaccKS!
Nur signing out!

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4:16 PM

Monday, January 02, 2006

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR EVERYONE!hahahas! great! im updating ma blog like in dinosaur years! im feeling too lethargic thanks to KAL that it took me two days to heal! This is ma best new years ever! From Chijmes to Club Why NOt! In anothar words ma best BOOGIE NITE! Heres how it goes. . .

Mit Kal at 10pm and we head straight to CHIJMES! Believe me! City Hall was damm packed! Y didnt i countdown with my honey? Well blamed me for choosing a bad boy but hey dun tell me he hap to be 24 straight hours wit me? Coutdown is to spend most of ur time wit ya peeps if ya a party animal liked me! Being wit a bf,hmm cant boogie maself down enuf rite? Hes wit his ADELPHI CREW while me wit ma Drama PApa! Hahahs! Ok back to it! Onces we arrived, it seems dull at first cause it hadnt start tha heat yet but when TRUE COLOURS perform! Dammit! Tha eurasians n everyone get down to tha center n start dancing! From tha genre of rnb to blues and ballad! dance frm 10pm to 12am! In tha middle of performance theres a game to be played to won some vouchers! n i won a 10 bucks voucher! Bought maself an orange juice while Kal had his Long Island,Bacardi Breezer and a Shot! Once it hits 12.00am! We shouted! Hug Kal! Everyone wishes each othar and tha fireworks frm MArina lights tha coutdown up! Phew i was sweating! TRUE COLOURS GREAT BAND! Than i realised this guy been following me around.. n when i turn he winked and gip me an air kissed. . hmm. . what was dad about? but hell i aint interested and continue wit ma dance! What i liked bout Chijmes is that all tha people were sporting and not many malays. . Ooops! I hope i aint insulting any1 . . It was heart warming and im sincerely overwhelmed! Than i felt a tap on ma back, a gorgeous lady pointed to us and ask, " are u guys couple?" i replied " NO!" she replied " Great dance moves by both of u!"
aww! i just flashes ma best smile and wishes her happy new year!

Kal was feeling a bit drunk! I smoke n smoke as we walked. . He held ma hands as we explore almost all tha places! Damm he! He hold ma hands tightly . . hold on to ma handbag. . didnt allow me to let go and force me to sing wit him . . i was wearing high heels. . ( 4 glamour sake,y not?") imagine we walked frm City Hall to Tanjong Pagar? Ma legs was burning hot! Darn im aint lying!

Reach WHY NOT and we saw Joey at tha door!YESH DEE!THA JOEY U ONCE HAD CRUSH ON!told us cover charge $40.00! I was rolling ma eyes! I hap no cash! Than JOey looked at tha BOUNCER, He looked at me and Kal, always sees us there and stamp our hands! Man when we get in! Tha club was packed! Put ma bag on tha locker! N start ma dance move again! WEe Hees! No REst 4 Me riTE? Dance,Walked,Dance!
As i was dancin, i saw a familiar face dancing near tha pole bar! Whu is tat guy? Tha shades seems familiar. . shouted at KAls ears Thats Rahim!!!!!! Rite enuf! Its him! Hug him tightly!
Hes there wid IDE and BOb!

IDE was drunk! Hes been climbing up on tha Pole Bar! Man! I didnt get a Chance for that! I love dancing there! It gives u tha spot light! THan this guy came to me.. hug me and Wishes me happy new year! Hug and KIsses and we dance! Hes a great dancer!
3.30am, i get to dance near tha pool, danced wit Rahim! Man! I was feelings sooooo Hyper! I danced till no one cud stop me!
3.55am last song! Joey came to me and we danced to GASOLINA! Had a great time! Hes a great dancer too! We sort of grind. . did we? Hhahas!! It was a great Nite out!

Rahim said i loooked great and great danced move! U too Rahim except ya torn pants?

Im sure everyone had a great time!!! Lup u all! MwwaaaCCKs!

With LOve ,
PinKIes Sanoritas!

TO dee n Hirin: MIssed U LOTs n May Ya Blessed WIt GREat NEw YEar!

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12:46 AM

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Hey peeps! Ok. . aftar few smart message from few of my friends, i decided to start blogging again. . y must i stop blogging due to someone that knows ma address and felt a pierce tru her heart since its all true bout U?

I hadnt been good . . ma guardian angel whu stand by me all this while knows it very well! Thanks guys for being by my side. . .

Im aint talking to ma mum anymore. . . i seems like a tenant in tha house, people aint toking to me and doing their own business. . i will embrace this scenario in ma heart forever. Im going to live in independance. . . yesh! Finally i found maself a job! I work in an office. . wit ma own table
and ma own phone. . good pay. . but u know what? best of all. . i work for 6 hours! Mon-Fri! Office time! I dun hap to sweat n slog for life! They only need someone with fluent in English! Man am i lucky! It kinda pissed me off during ma job hunting when most of them needed Chinese and English spoken! I can speak chinese. . KANINABUEI PUA CI BAI! hows that? aint it captivating them?

I work as a manucurist for a day! Damm i love that job and ma boss love me but what i hate is that i have to sign a bond wit them! Thats when i decide and said a bold NO! Right now i work in an office wit a sporting boss! As crazy as me! Hahahas!!But one problem,I have no cash to eat! I have no financial security since i decided tha independance way . . but god will help me shine tru this difficulty . . . insyaallah!

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