Thursday, March 30, 2006
hey its been so long since i blog. . . pretty busy with my work and trying very hard to save for my Shatec and ma Bike license. . .
my life has took for a change. . . guys been starting to get my numbers even when im at work. . hey pls dun go to me for loooks. . . .
to botak. . . here this. . we may be taking a break right now but hey if its destinied yeap. . we would be back together again . .
im free! i love to feel tha air of freedoom . . i need time off. . . ma heart been knocked by 2 guys . . . its not tha burning desire of love that m looking for. . its tha mixture of personality by both of them that i want. . .
Baby. . . u are forever tha best dude and boyfriend that i have always looked for and into. Thanks for being a gentlemen. . . we are still contacting. . it seems how strong this relationship had lead us to. . . infact by taking a break from ourself. . . there's more comfy and bigger wings to fly!
love is a paradox. . . im beginning to worship this motto. . . i have stop myself from getting to know boys . . . cigratte is ma boyfriend for now. . .
i guess i have master tha bibble of love. . . tha bibble which i try to master all this years in order not to hurt any party. . . understanding and honesty is tha best priority. . . . but what happen if complication takes away those meaning of bibble? whu should i turn to? Oh god. . if only i could communicate with u. .. please show me whues tha prince charmning of ma life. . . .
quit playing games wit ma love life. . i had enuf. . y must anothar certain someone come by? or perhaps i hap not found ma perfect husband?
i had been dreaming an unknown guy in ma dreams after so much prayers to u. . is that a message or an illusion? oh god. . tell me if its true. . .
people around me told me i deserve a perfect one. . . both telling me tha same answer. . . u have tha looks wit a bonus personality. . . but does tha true? or aint that just sweet words?
im still young. . . 18 infact. . i dun need to be captured and locked in a cage . . . i have make this clear to ma boyfriends. . . u r not my husband. . . ma freedoom is not urs. . . whu i wanna be with got nuthang to do wit u. . . tha freedoom that u could inquire from me is just minimal. .
i hap to stop losing weight and cut ma hair bald. . will that stop from u guys loving me and stop all this complication? if yes i would!
god. . . stop this complication. . . . i wanna found ma perfect one. . have i yet or not? it bears a burden in ma heart to be knock twice . . . dun put a thrice in it. . .
guys tell me. . . how could i stop all this complication??? im losing grip . . . yesh i do. . .
love,
me
wonderful idea...
8:16 PM
