aww. . . i miss u guys. . . . alright werk has been hectic n m been taking mc n ul. . . m not in ma best of health. . . ma stomach is hurting now n than. . . its hard for me to get to werk. . . i didnt haf tha courage to tell ma company but oh well . . . . how can i possibly told them that ma stomach is causing a big problem that i cant carry heavy crates anymore? ma huney is angry n worried. . . yeap he came up wit tha best solution . . . to find an office job. . i totally agree. . m not strong like last time. . i been masking maself for time to time. . its time to stop putting up a smile actiing as if everything is allright. . . he dun allow othars to bully me n taken an extra care of me. . m touch. . thanks dearie. . scold me when m wrong. . shower me wit endless love when i needed it. . . i cant sleep at night. . . ma stomach is hurting badly. .
he followed me to an event. . in tha invitation card , "nur&suffi" hahahs. . feeling married gitu . . . its an celebration cum bridal display. . . wow! tha performances was fabulous n tha place was jam packed. . security was tight. . . food was great. . .ma syg was soo supportive. . entertaining me. . ma brother. . n aint forgetting tha drag queens! hhahhahs! damm cute lah he. . he hold on to me tightly when tha wedding display was out. . m aint taking tha hint dearie. . its too early. . imagine one gay wanna share ma bf wit him? hahahs! i dun wan ma bf to be shared!! they say hes cute. . ya right. . tha cute is for me. .if u r reading this.. jangan marah! more pics from tha event. . too lazy to upload it. . .
its funny isnt it when ma bf is 23 n hes looking 16-18 years old? but oh well. . m short anyway . . hahahs. . suffi has changed. . nora. . he does. . thanks dear for waking me up. . he dun wanna hurt me anymore. . i always thought a guy always says he will change but lied. . i put tha mindset to him n m freaking out to hes changes. . m only asking for one. . n hes changing for more. . . he tends to be a great listening ear to ma problems. . he knows most of ma friends are gays. . he open up his mind n mix around wit them like they are hes old friends. . he endure that company which he onces hate. . he doesnt throw hes temper around. . he tends to get calm n solve tha problem together. . n for once. . m feeling tha luckiest on this 8th of tha month. . he hates watching movie as its a waste of money. . but for now. . he watches. . although hes tired n sleepy from hes work. .
if i make a mistake. . he speaks softly n maintain hes tone. . darling i will change too. . give me time. . it aint always ur fault . . . i hap to stop being naggy n stubborn headed. . u have to focus on ur werk. . earn big bucks. . get ur bike license back. . if thats what u wanted. .its been 18th month already!
to ma aunt if u r reading this.. . pardon me if i totally cant attend to ur hum on hari raya since m too exhausted from werk n m feeling weak all i want is to sleep!
to han! i miss u!! can follow me go rumah busu for raya visits?
i hope u guys had a great hari raya. . . i love u guys . . . but ma love for ma bf is growing intensely. . .i lup u huney. . mwaacks!
-take care guys-
wonderful idea... 10:45 PM
In Floral Heaven
She shuts the doors and lights
And lays her body on the bed
Where images and words are
running deep
She has too much pride to pull
the sheets above her head
So quietly she lays and waits
for sleep
