Saturday, January 13, 2007
Aloha people! At last aftar a week and a half aint
meeting ma huney. . we managed to squeeze out time and meet up for today! Dearie went for reservist n m telling u guys one thang m proud of, I CAN SURVIVE! lols! to be frank aftar i started working i haf change some of ma principles and opinions in tha sense of how i shoud be treated by my partner. .trust me. . all ma fairy tales dreams was scrapped of ma love dictionary. Dearie works for 14 hours wheres me according to shift. . its hard to meet and manage our time and schedule. By tha time we wanna chat, its a mere 10-15 minutes talk. . now i have totally understood this quote, " WHEN YA IN LOVE, THERES SOME SACRIFICES TO BE MADE" 
I cant blame him tha way he treated me during hes reservist period. . . we talk as if we are friends. . we just dated. . yea obviously he stills gave me those virtual good night kisses, confessing hes love n hes misses. . . theres nuthang to blame him. . u cant expect ur partner to gave hes attention to u each and every minutes. . even at work. . only 2-3 sms was exchange cause he understood i cant be disturb at work but deep in our heart. . we misses each othar ; counting each and everyday for our date. He told me just now, "allow me to focus on my job. . only when i felt too tired i would request for my off day, if not i will continue working. I hope you understand. i need to stabilise ma income. U could still visit me during ma break time. We are still in tha same company. Dun worry n dun thang differently. I wouldn't go to othar gals. I sygkan u. . non othars. . we will try this way now. . alright? "
i felt like a spank i was getting. I just nodded. I could only patiencely waiting for him to ask me out on a date. I wont ask any. FULL-STOP. Its heavy for my heart to accept that decision but what can i do? Hes in a dilemma in between work and juggling this relationship. I realised i wont have a listening ear each n every night. But oh well i still have ma devoted dearies of ma life RAHIM,HANIF! Rahim especially will always be there for me. God knows how much tears of mine has has captured n rescue ;) . Hes new working hours could just kill everything but i know i love this guy and i will endure all this cause i believe there will be a joyous moments in tha future which we both would shared. Tha rest i leave to god . . Insyallah.
I know how much he hated movies. I was shocked n taken aback when he ask me put for a movie. Went to VIVOCITY!He brings me out for a movie though he hated visiting tha theatre! I was an avid theatre fan! Any movies name it! I will watch it!. . but ever since m with him . . i guess m not. i just watched code 1 dvds at ma workplace. . had a great time with him . . was all those sacrifices i made worth for this relationship? ONE ANSWER TO MASELF " QUESTION MARK ??? "
Ma only wish He could open up hes eyes n observed me. Seriously dearie, i have changed alot for us. But please dun take this happiness of mine away. It was hard for me trying to be tha water but m getting used to it. I'm just proud that never once we shouted or argued in a rude n dis-respectful manner. Its always some babbling and ended in an hour or two. I guess thats me in any relationship and he never once make used of me or think bout lust. Theres tha respect that was given to me. If we are married, thats a different things. M blessed. Alhamdullillah. Ma prayer was answered.Oh well i bettar stop babbling bout tha chronicles of ma relationship. All i know is m not pinning so much hope in him cause any time ur journey of ur love life could be a U-TURN. Tha hardest thing in life at this stage of age m getting in relationship. I would laugh at ma peeps who tried to make their relationship looks so perfect cause tha most perfect relationship is a failure in return. I have learned tha quote long ago. Its time for me to move along :)
Anyway guys. . heres are tha pics of him during hes reservist period,
Cute isnt he? hahahahs!!! ;p
okie peeps! thats all tha pictures! theres more. . but i guess its enuf for now!!u guys have a great day ahead and take care. . . .P.S: HE'S MA SECTION COMMANDER: LANCE COOPERAL! lols!!Love him to bits. . . . With so much Love,Nur Sanoritas 
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