LIfEz sEEmz UNpREdICtabLez ......

2007-04-01T09:11:00.000-07:00

My sincere apologies to everyone whom been waiting for me to update my blog! My sincere apologies to you. Here's a collage of pics that has been happening when I am away.

(Was taken outside the house after Fazli wedding. Hmms. . Was flattered by Suffi comment :)

he was overwhelmed that for once he saw me in baju kurung n he said i was looking angelic and sweet. Very pweety :) Tha wedding was great! Tha food was nice! Can mummy cook nasi jagung for my engagement? hmms. . berangan lah kau nur! berangan)

( Candid shot! K.P.O bf of mine! Auntie slipper tercabut pun nak tengok )

(Pizza Hut here we come!)

(Don't ask me what was that for! He's enjoying every bites

of the pizza ;) )

(With this sickening face of mine, i was too tired and

exhausted. But hey i finished every drops of PEPSI)

(At last finished FOOD! *BURP*)

( BABY! The most adorable,cutest Toddler i have ever seen)

(Met Shaks on 2nd April at 10pm just to pass an early birthday prezzie for her!

hahahahs!!got a wet-juicy kiss from her on ma cheeck ;) )

There's just too many explanation about my decision and my life if you were to ask me to dictate it to you. I could only accept every test he is giving me. Be it Wealth,Love,Family and work.

I don't have a choice but to accept every test he gave me with open arms. He would left my mum right by my side to listen, educating me with advices and being the total guidance throughout this rough journey of mine. Drops of tears means nuthang to me right now but its conquering every problems and standing up tall. Fighting off the fierce battle I am facing with PRIDE & DIGNITY!

Mummy has wrote down such an emotional yet an over-whelming post in her blog which makes me shed tears of happiness and relieved at least i have someone whom is dearest to me for a shoulder to cry on. Time flies so fast and today is the day i have been fully educate a CERT- APPRECIATING A MOTHER'S LOVE. People in any decision I will be making in a year or two to come, please don't get upset with me. I hope i get the best wishes from all of you, especially each and every individuals from my family members.

I tried to make everything simple, I have tried my very best to ensuring the love of my life to understand my problems and what I have been through. It's true what most mothers would say. I have totally agreed to this sentence" MOTHER'S KNOW THEIR CHILDREN THE BEST; NO MOTHER'S WOULD HATE THEIR CHILDREN." I have hereby admit, gleaming with pride I have someone like her in my life. Kids, every messages your parents tried to convey to you will be effected in ya near future. Heed their advice.

To Mummy,

Let's put the past behind us. My sincere apologise from me to you in whatever i had done. Reflecting on the past, those were my growing up stages which to now its the BIGGEST regrets of my life. Please be always by my side. Without my grandparents, ya my one and only crying shoulders. Without your 'DOA' and blessing i would a lost soul. I love you mum. I love you very much. Mwaacks!

Sayang, I will always be by your side. Whatever plans ya having for 2008, don't get too excited cause its still not confirmed. By December 2007 I will give you the answers. with ur care and concern and those warm hugs i got from ya, I felt secured. I miss You dearie. I'm totally missing you.

Till here everyone.

To Han, I Miss u too.

Good Day everyone.

Nur Sanoritas OUTS!

Cure

2007-03-18T21:56:00.000-07:00

Heyas Fellows Blogger! Been Going tru a rough times those weeks back then. Aint gonna elaborate much but oh well thanks to tha entetainment n passes for all tha fabulous movie screening, m much betta by spending much time with my family. Honestly guys, M lookin forward to spending much more time with them. Call me a homie or family girl right now. . But heys! This cant be help as m growing and to be frank, my FAMILY is filled with so much love, compassion and concern. Ma mummy been there for me for all this rough times m going tru. . If aint for her m aint gonna pull maself up. I was putting an upfront of happiness but deep inside, its sorrowness thats lingering upon ma soul. I could really count with my fingers friends of whom i could depend on. Sadly but true, true friends will appear out of nowhere like an guardian angel whom flaps their wings to ya rescue. They doesnt seems to mind how long u been forgettting them cause part of u and tru those times u spend together was priceless. Kinda ironic but true.

Few days ago, ma guy was totally ill. M aint letting this battle of tha "sickness" stops till hes fully cured. Its affecting hes work. Its affecting us. Its affecting our financial. Its affecting hes reputation.
During each phone conversation, i would allowed ma tears streaming ma cheecks, m silently crying. Tha tears was unstoppable. I manage to just said yesh and no. I felt like i wanna run to Bukit Batok and stayed by his side.

Suffi was so weak and fragile. His eyes was swollen especially right below his eyes. Hes running a high fever. He cant even lift a cup properly. He cant speak properly. Hes feeling remorse for taking too many MC and He cant get hes pay. Hes in a deep dilemma. He was breathless and half tha conversation i could only heard him trying hard to breath and venting tha frustation all to himself. I wish I could help but what could i do? I could only lift hes spirit up. Stay by his side.
"ya allah, kuatkanlah iman dan pulihkan segala penyakit insan ya ku sayangi atas kejahatan manusia"

I have lost ma hope on going back to school judging this situation right now. Ma dreams are shattered during this period of time. . I could only work and work, this time is ma responsibility to take care of him, hoping he would get well soon, once hes fully recovered , insyaallah our finance would be stabilise back again. I wouldn't be pinning on hopes and dreams for a birthday celebration nor our yearly celebration but all i know, nuthang will change ma mindset to make hes birthday a memoriable one. I wanna surprised him. His celebration would be full of surprises ;)

I did mention on tha first paragraph i been watching movies right?? these are the movies i have catch truout tha new releases in MARCH. In tha courtesy of HMV!

DREAMGIRLS

Treated mummy, aunt and cuzzy to this movie! If ya a musical kinda person, u will find this movie totally pure entertainment! Its mind blowing with tha powrful vocals of Jennifer Hudsons and Beyonce to ride u tru tha whole movie!! A twist of tha story of what's been happening during the ERA of SUPREMES! Beyonce is DIANA ROSS while Jennifer plays tha estraged member(damm i forgotten tha name) whom actually in real life died at tha edge of mid-30 due to drugs.
i'll rate this 8 Popcorns!!

PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS

This is based on a true story of Chris Gardner whom now owns a huge multi billion dollars firms! When everythang fails and not enough penny to survive with his wife Linda left him thinking hes good for nuthang aftar whom both of them wasted all their saving into buying BONE-DENSITY machine which they doesnt find out that clinics and hospital finds this machine unnessasary! With his strong will-power, he carries a machine everywhere he goes in a hope of making a living. There he met a met whom a stock-broker and he went for 6 months training internship. He passed tha test. A truly inspirational story of all times.
Girls prepare ya tissue ;)
I'll rate this 7 Popcorns!(due to tha fact that tha plot at tha beginning was dry)

300

A superb artistic picture screening! Tha fights was mind blowing! It totally follows tha comics and tha cast and crew has done a splendid performances! Ma whole workplace been complimenting on 300 each and everyday we seen each other!! Its was soo much marvelous!!
I'll rate this 10 Popcorns! can help it guys!! nothing imperfect on this movie and its was well done ;)

MUSIC AND LYRICS

A comedy, sweet and romantic movie! M a big fan of Drew Barry Moore and Hugh GRant! Its a pure entertainment with songs to serenate ya heart! Catch this with ya BF or GF. U guys would be cuddling and holding each others hand truout tha whole movie! U guys just cant seem to let it go ;) Hopelessly romantic :)
I'll Give this 7 POpcorns!

STOMP THE YARD

a Typical dance kinda movie eversince TAKE THE LEAD was produced! STep-Up follows and now STOMP THE YARD. Well u would be entertain but tha plot was expected. Its kinda like DRUMLINE dance version. Great storming and dance movies but being a movie buff aftar catching so much movies in life, tha plots doesnt seems to catch ma heart but its still a thumbs up though ;)
I'll rate this 6 Popcorns!

Aites guys, Till here than!

Nur SAnoritas, OUt!
Mwaaacks!

2007-03-01T07:40:00.000-08:00

Aloha pe0ple!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! M back! Today was such a great day!!!!!!! met up with dee and hirin! had a great outing aftar years of catching up! its was great!! misses them! i love u both!! so when to PAstamania and haf a coffee at COFFEE BEAN!! Dee went shopping at MANGO while m shopping for ma dearie beach shorts. . . .its time for a new one ;) its kinda irony when u met ya besty aftar a long time and even with that duration of time thangs between us nevar change :D Hirin and Dee and matured over the years but its still tha crazy us. . too bad FIra doesnt joined us . u misses tha fun baby . . . M lookin for tha next time of tha month m seein them. .this time with Fira. . i wanna shop shop shop. .

Bump into few familiar faces. .its kinda funny when i recalled ma secondary past. . its humourous :)

At 6pm met ma Beloved MUMMY, ma cuzzy and aunt to catch DREAMGIRLS! its was fantastic! tha best musical i have seen so far! oh ma gosh! JENNIFER HUDSONS! her voice was extraordinary! I could just open up mouth and said " WOW" "WOAH"

Please m pleading all of u to catch dreamgirls!! please catch it cause its musically incline, when u left tha theathre u will have tha feelin, "you wanna boogie" lingering tru ya body ending urself with an experience u would nevar forget ;)

Heres are tha pics of tha day!

Hirin & Dee

ME n Dee (i hated ma face here but oh well DEe Loooked FAB!)

US 3 beauties!!

ME & Hirin!

Hirin & DEe (arent they looookin sweet?)

Me & Hirin AgaIN!!

Me & DEe again!!!

Last But not least. . Me n HIrin again!!

Huney gotta b at work each and everyday with a restday every SUNDAY! misses him soo soo much!! absolutely! i love him!! i love him!!! LOve of my life, please enlighten me to this world of yours full or tenderness, care and love. . ya ma one and only sweetheart . .i mean it. . i swear. . mwaacccks!!

baby i made a vow to maself, if all those sacrifices is worth making for,

i swear to ma life dearie, watever i do, is only for u. . .

M counting tha daes to hap a fabulous outing with ma dearie sec besty, Ma cuzzy azie ira MUMMy n Zainah Zain!!!! Tha feelin of togetherness was a feelin that i can nevar describe. . i love u guys n MOHD SUFFI! i misses u!

good day guys. . dreamgirls okies????

2007-02-10T08:00:00.000-08:00

wheesh people!! alrites i know m aint updatin ma bloggy for a long time. . these are tha answers to ya curiosity. . . for ma avid reader, my apologies. . .

* ma computer broke down!!

*i dun have any camera phone for picture taking!!! grrr!!

*bad injury until its infected. . (open wound. . no skin but flesh!!)

*ma leg swollen!

*due to infection has high fever n lost ma voice!!

*depression mode!! m soo stress up!

UPDATES:

Huney has quited hes job. I guess its gonna be a burden if we both work in tha same workplace. Honestly m getting agitated with those people whues making our relationship to hard to manage. I was seriously frustated. Its either me or him. . in the end i choose him cause its for tha best. So for now. . totally on tight budget. He promised me to get tha cash for my studies in a week or two. Hmm. . m praying hard.

Dear. . . thinking of u taking a break could give me tha hope of u spending much more time with me, have a long chat with me tru phonecalls. . i totally seriously misses that feeling when u were trying so hard to court me. Honestly dearie we are losing those affection. I need those attention. I cant always be tha one giving in. I cant.

Instead u went fishing with ur friends, played soccer. I understand. We always divided our time between friendship and relationship. We have always draw tha line. I have given u enuff space. I dunno how much more space must i spared which satisfy ur freedom. Honestly dearie, i don't.

I was shocked u didnt even informed me till i give you a call ya staying over at ya friends house to have ya gaming session. At least informed. I was sadden by u.

Aftar so much sacrifices i made for u during tha battle in tha workplace. How much humiliation and arguments we went tru. I succeded to be tha water, i give in to u. Not a single argument of ours lasted long cause i gave in. I am not trying to "ungkit" but hey at least show me some appreciation.

U are having ya break, this tha only time we could get together like meet up 2 -3 times a week, have a lullaby conversation at night. . . i miss it so much. . cant u gave me those feelings back just during ya break cause soon u are starting work. We wont have time for each other anymore. I miss u.

Yesterday outing was great. I do really misses him. We dun wanna watch movie, instead meet ma bro at orchard to get ma mummy's birthday prezzie. Get ma QUESADILLAS at TACO BELL! Yum YUm!! N grab our beloved seats at MC CAFE ;) yesh thats where we always went out on a date. . . he would play ma psp while me reading a book trying to relax as i lean ma head on his shoulders. . we would stop to chat and continued with our activities or played tha game together in some intervals. He's hooked to ma SPOTS with my SUPERB DUPERP GIRLFWENS!

Now thinking of yesterday's outing m aint angry with u darling but m still frustated. . yesh these is gals . . . u earn them as ya GF u treat them well. . never neglect them!! but nevertheless huney. . . i am still deeply in love with you. I love u many many aites??

mwaacckss!!

ps: I NEED INTEVENTION, ATTENTION TO STOP TEMPTATION TO SCREAM!!

2007-01-27T23:10:00.000-08:00

nuthang much to say. . . m just feeling frustated, dissapoint and totally sadden. . . .

good day guys!

mwaacks!

2007-01-13T07:27:00.000-08:00

Aloha people! At last aftar a week and a half aint
meeting ma huney. . we managed to squeeze out time and meet up for today! Dearie went for reservist n m telling u guys one thang m proud of, I CAN SURVIVE! lols! to be frank aftar i started working i haf change some of ma principles and opinions in tha sense of how i shoud be treated by my partner. .trust me. . all ma fairy tales dreams was scrapped of ma love dictionary. Dearie works for 14 hours wheres me according to shift. . its hard to meet and manage our time and schedule. By tha time we wanna chat, its a mere 10-15 minutes talk. . now i have totally understood this quote, " WHEN YA IN LOVE, THERES SOME SACRIFICES TO BE MADE"

I cant blame him tha way he treated me during hes reservist period. . . we talk as if we are friends. . we just dated. . yea obviously he stills gave me those virtual good night kisses, confessing hes love n hes misses. . . theres nuthang to blame him. . u cant expect ur partner to gave hes attention to u each and every minutes. . even at work. . only 2-3 sms was exchange cause he understood i cant be disturb at work but deep in our heart. . we misses each othar ; counting each and everyday for our date. He told me just now, "allow me to focus on my job. . only when i felt too tired i would request for my off day, if not i will continue working. I hope you understand. i need to stabilise ma income. U could still visit me during ma break time. We are still in tha same company. Dun worry n dun thang differently. I wouldn't go to othar gals. I sygkan u. . non othars. . we will try this way now. . alright? "

i felt like a spank i was getting. I just nodded. I could only patiencely waiting for him to ask me out on a date. I wont ask any. FULL-STOP. Its heavy for my heart to accept that decision but what can i do? Hes in a dilemma in between work and juggling this relationship. I realised i wont have a listening ear each n every night. But oh well i still have ma devoted dearies of ma life RAHIM,HANIF! Rahim especially will always be there for me. God knows how much tears of mine has has captured n rescue ;) . Hes new working hours could just kill everything but i know i love this guy and i will endure all this cause i believe there will be a joyous moments in tha future which we both would shared. Tha rest i leave to god . . Insyallah.

I know how much he hated movies. I was shocked n taken aback when he ask me put for a movie. Went to VIVOCITY!He brings me out for a movie though he hated visiting tha theatre! I was an avid theatre fan! Any movies name it! I will watch it!. . but ever since m with him . . i guess m not. i just watched code 1 dvds at ma workplace. . had a great time with him . . was all those sacrifices i made worth for this relationship? ONE ANSWER TO MASELF " QUESTION MARK ??? "
Ma only wish He could open up hes eyes n observed me. Seriously dearie, i have changed alot for us. But please dun take this happiness of mine away. It was hard for me trying to be tha water but m getting used to it. I'm just proud that never once we shouted or argued in a rude n dis-respectful manner. Its always some babbling and ended in an hour or two. I guess thats me in any relationship and he never once make used of me or think bout lust. Theres tha respect that was given to me. If we are married, thats a different things. M blessed. Alhamdullillah. Ma prayer was answered.

Oh well i bettar stop babbling bout tha chronicles of ma relationship. All i know is m not pinning so much hope in him cause any time ur journey of ur love life could be a U-TURN. Tha hardest thing in life at this stage of age m getting in relationship. I would laugh at ma peeps who tried to make their relationship looks so perfect cause tha most perfect relationship is a failure in return. I have learned tha quote long ago. Its time for me to move along :)

Anyway guys. . heres are tha pics of him during hes reservist period,

Cute isnt he? hahahahs!!! ;p

okie peeps! thats all tha pictures! theres more. . but i guess its enuf for now!!
u guys have a great day ahead and take care. . . .

P.S: HE'S MA SECTION COMMANDER: LANCE COOPERAL! lols!!
Love him to bits. . . .

With so much Love,
Nur Sanoritas

2007-01-10T18:18:00.000-08:00

SELF OBSESSED . . thats tha topic m going to babble about . .
read ma cuzzy bloggy. . .
i felt a sudden urge to remind everyone. . . criticising someone out of their own weakness was absolutely
IN-HUMAN!

Zie trust me. . i love just tha way you are. .
ya one of tha smartest girl in tha family and thank god ya bless with tha intelligence. Everyone Zie has each and each ownself imperfectionist. . Some may look gorgeous in terms of the appearance, but deep inside they are a loner trying their very best to get tha public to notice them ; soon they are facing a failure to success. I have met a few like that. They are willing to betrayed a friendship for tha sake of their happiness. They are selfish. They make sure no one gets anythang better than them. These kind of people are PLASTIC N HYPOCRITES!
Remember this U JUDGE URSELF NOT OTHERS.
As for now, ya growing up. U just cant seems to look at tha mirror, ur image reflecting you with all those pimple which getting worst each and everyday. . n people are moking at those burn marks at ur leg. If u think you are ugly they are others whose uglier its just how u carry yourself. Yesh i know. . Ur bubbliness is a shield towards ur sorrowness deep inside ur heart. .

Zie if u think i am gorgeous right now, look at me in tha past. Its tha matter of how you groom urself. U will understand this phrase onces ya entering POLY years. To be frank with you, guys wont look into ur beauty for you to be tha choice of their life partner. True love is when ur partner would protect you from all those sarcasticm remarks that public makes. I was once fat n ugly. I was desperately trying to lose weight as i feared each and everyday i step in school i would received hurtful remarks that would demoralised maself. Than someone entered ma life, took ma fear away, oh yesh. . at that point of time, love is what i need. I carried maself so perfectly in school that m aint afraid to be mock at. Slowly i change. I was positive and strong. I looked into tha mirror and believed someday i would be a swan. And here i am today. I lose tha weight all by maself with motivation and will power. We dont live in tha HOLLYWOOD life. WE DONT ZIE. WE DONT.

I would be lying if i am satisfied with what i have now. Infact it adds on to greed. I want to shed much more of that weight thinking it would bring happiness to my life. In ma mind was, " i am sure my boyfriend would love it! Who doesnt want a slim n trim gurlfriend?" instead i was scolded by him. he reminded me how much i was suffering with weight lost till i fainted not once not twice but trice! How selfish i was, aint thinking of othars who cared for me soo much! i have learned my lesson. I once have pimple breakout. but with patience with a product aint getting tempted wit othars recommedation, i manage to battle with it. STICK WITH ONE! REMEMBER ONE!!!

GIRLS? Each individuals has each own vanity! Trust me, if theres isnt anyone to wake me up, i am still tha self obessed. selfish girl that no one wanna see that side of me. I am happy with what i am now. THA MOST IMPORTANTLY IS MA INNER BEAUTY. Not the outer.

If u need me to shed those fats with you, i am more than willing to be part of that jouney with you. Remember Zie , criticising urself means ya criticising ur parents and god.

U HAVE JUST CHEATED URSELF N UR MOTIVATION ZIE.

Zie i have always loves tha way u r. . . There was not a time i am telling u, ZIE U R UGLY!
Thats insanity! Thats cruel! Cause u r not! U r just tha average girl who lies in tha beauty of ur inner self. I love you n will always love u.

CHANGE THAT SELF- OBSESSED TO SELF - ACCEPTANCE!

p.s: Its going to be my one anniversary to ma PSP PINK! hahahs!! I am so lucky that mine is EUROPE MADE, VERSION 3.2 AND POTABLE TV IN IT! SPECIALLY REQUEST! THANKS DEARIE!

Much Love,
NUR

2006-12-16T23:34:00.000-08:00

huney has decided to join HMV back and yesh our relationship has been annouced to public aftar months off keeping our lips shut! at first i felt a sense of insecurity that perhaps its gonna get worst aftar tha big conflict thats been happening in HMV just cause of a bitch whu thinks that she could tarnish our relationship and making a big scene till all our managers and clique getting involve. . people stayed by our side but tha thought of that bitch so called " fiancee" attacked ma huney saying he's having feelings for her n stated he ever wanted to have an affair, making her his scandal. . . i felt as if all ma dreams tarnish. .. so much for ma love for him . . i felt like a failure. . everyone assured me that hes not that kinda guy. . . no one believed that bitch. . i was obviously insecured. . . he explained everythang. .not wanting me to get involve. . i love him god. . i do. .

so now when hes back that bitch could laid her eyes on him . . but oh what tha heck . . i wouldnt get jealous. . i believe in fate n destiny. . and thats what ma religion has thought me. . . this is what i think " FEAR IS THA WAY FOR LOVE" . . not only she doesnt apologies to me for creating a heck of conflicts which all her bloody fault. . instead on tha first day of ma huney getting back in HMV she asked him " are u still angry wit me suffi? " ma gosh! her mouth was shut whenever she sees me. . she could smiled and talked to ma guy. . . . m not being jealous. . ma guy could mix n went around wit all tha gals he wan. . but if he really does love me. . he wont sabotage our love. . i cant force nor could i turn hes feelings around. . its him. . no matter what happen. . we haf went tru soo much. . ma heart was at ease when hes manager accept our love n now everyone in tha store seems happy for us n our love. . . ma love is approved. . none of us will get transfered as long as we behaved n does our work well. . which i believed we would.

Huney licensed was suspended for 18 months n now hes crawling n begging his luck to get his licensed back. . but fat hope dear. . . u got to re-take! Hahahs! M happy for him in both ways . . he's been beaming wit smiled at work. . . never seen him with full of happiness as hes re-united wit hes best bud. . m happy for u baby. .

rahim came to HMv store with Liza. . huney n me worked tha same shift . . . i know how tired he is, i decided to wave rahim HI n done ma staff purchased for him n get back home. . instead huney asked me if i wanna join rahim for dinner n he doesnt mind following since its my friend that i adore n get to see him once a while. . i smiled n said yesh. . if only he could get to work on time tha next day n he could have enough rest. . . its went great . . he's even closer wit rahim. . joking with him n even offered to hold his hands. .. hhhahas!! was a great dinner. .

oh n yesh! aftar all tha incident, i realised ma huney has changed for some reasons. yesterday as we were strolling n getting back home. . ma darling was waving n winking to this gal. . he shouted in a cute tone , " YANA" man. .i was taken abacked. . . before he could strike a conversation. . he introduced me to her " YAna this is my girlfriend. . " he put his hand around ma waist as he introduced. . n he said to me " U, this is Yana my childhood friend. . known her since m small. . " he chatted for awhile n walked off. . .

i never had a boyfriend who would introduce me to any gal they known. . usually they would talked n i would be standing one corner smiling not bothered to strike a conversation. . hahahs. . instead he hold ma hand n pull me there. . . i know why he did this. . to make me feel secured. .
:) how sweet can he be?

This is for him. . Darling till this day. . m still pining more of your love ;)
Love of mine some day you will die,
But I'll be close behind.
I'll follow you into the dark.
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white;
Just our hands clasped so tight,
Waiting for the hint of a spark.

If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs:
If there's no one beside you,
When your soul embarks;
Then I'll follow you into the dark.

Han busu shaks n family. . i missed u guys! Daddy u have changed n i loved you more!! m in love soo much wit ma life! ;)

2006-11-18T10:02:00.000-08:00

Aloha people! Yee HaA! A very good mawnin to you people! Its past 2am n i still cant sleep (huney wud kill me)! hahahs! Ma life? Its killing me softly. . .

How would you feel as a daughter seeing ur mum crying,sobbing without noticing tha hurt shes feeling all these while? U knew this hurt will come anytime soon. . perhaps in years time but it swayed too fast. . like how tha whirlpool sweeping away tha mother nature of tha sea? u felt paralysed aint nowhere to go to. . . with you left alone thinking of tha solution? Theres two hard choices tha could be made. . either one would kill tha solution. . . m clueless. .m speechless people. . i cant be forever taking urgent leave in this hectic situation. . i have got to work. . and u know what people? all tha sobbings about? a simple yet a word tha used millions around tha world. . which vice versa used in ur daily life. . . which has millions different meanings " L.O.V.E"

L.OV.E was so powerful . . tha magnect of attraction in ma life. . tha shattered dreams piercing tru a human life like an heart attacked. If you love, pampered ur love ones two much. .aint knowing tha freedoom,tha protection given to him/her could let it astray. . m sorry mum. . i guess you have learn a bitter lesson. . It hurts me tha most. . seeing ma mothar crying . . breathing each day wit a heavy burden shes carrying in her soul. . i felt helpless. . I felt betrayed sometimes. . Whats god showing us? Whats this prove for? One answer from me. . an eye opener for ma mum. . something new. . something that she learned. . for onces in her life. . she's a baby crawling learning how to walk. . with othars giving her tha encouragement to walk n learn how to talk. . I wanna regain tha smile in her heart. . i wanna her to fly. . free of problems. . if i have tha power. . if i were offered a potion. . a wish. . i would trade ma life for in. . but oh well. . . life is too short . . too complicated. . too hard for us to undarstand. .only him above has tha answer . . All i could contribute resolving this matter is TRUTH. M using truth. . hate me for now. . . u will thanked me in times to come. . .

Hahahs guys! Speaking of truth. . . Here it goes. . Tha jerk. . tha parasite whum stick to me . . sucking ma blood for monay. . . is getting married to a pathetic ugly minah. . . whues pregnant with hes child. . promising her good life. . lying n keep on lying. . running away from people . . THIS MINAH MAKES HER OWN PORN MOVIE! wow! m i estactic! Phew. . Thank god ma virginity protected. .Phew! Aint a soul taking it away till m registered MARRIED. . will still stick and abide to ma rules . . those whues been long wit me would undarstand. . THIS IS WHAT I MEANT REAL JERK! get it ma lovely ladies? hahahs!

Huney and me been perfectly great. . . its kinda irony when we both spending less time together. . . . feeling pissed wit rumours and people getting jealous of ma huney . . cant u get it people? He aint cuming to HMV! get it straight. . u dun hap to be a pest . . Darling just smiled and told me. . " Dun worry lah dear. .someday i will make a comeback. .making them gasp in amazement" hehes. . At last syg kept hes hair trim and short. . when he came to fetched me that day. . i just looked and him n smiled to maself. . what a blessing i been getting from god. . someone that makes me smiled deep n forever whispering to maself whenever i looked into hes eyes . " I love him grandpa" " I love him grandma". I love Him. " like how i once love u. ." these word would whispered slowly as i looked into sky. . . My Suffi brings tha love of them alive.

.:. He would kiss my hands whenever i giggled or laughed to his jokes. . just like my grandpa did.

.:. He would hug me tightly whenever i lectured or talked sensed to him muttering, " syg dier" kissing ma cheecks for tha endings. . .

.:. Tha way he lectured ma wrong doings, hes principle in live driving me to ma fond memories of ma granny.

.:. Hes generosity was onced both ma grandparents attitude.

.:. He has tha height of ma grandpa. . short n cute! hahahs!

.:. When we are in a cab, bus ride. . he would strech hes hands. . hinting me an indication to rest ma head to hes chest . . feeling hes heart beating. . just like ma grandpa. .

I can't imagine maself losing him . . its tha feeling of losing both ma grandparents in such a short notice. . tha memories of losing them stays vividly in ma mind. .

I would try ma best to upload ma huney new look! I find him hard to resist. .he looks like a small boy. . . sooo geram like that! hahahs. . . its okie if people looked at him . . oh my. . he looks small for a 23 year old boy just cause hes short but hes cute OKAES! Nvm darling. . i lUp U many many. . . . . .

M waiting anothar week to meet ma huney. . counting tha daes. . i misses him. . ;)

M babbbling to much. . m proceeding to ma LALA LAND! 3 am rite now! Thanks to starbucks caffeine!! U guys take care aites? N u been missed! MwwaaaCCCks!!!!!!!!

- Pinkies Sanoritas -

2006-11-09T22:45:00.000-08:00

aww. . . i miss u guys. . . . alright werk has been hectic n m been taking mc n ul. . . m not in ma best of health. . . ma stomach is hurting now n than. . . its hard for me to get to werk. . . i didnt haf tha courage to tell ma company but oh well . . . . how can i possibly told them that ma stomach is causing a big problem that i cant carry heavy crates anymore? ma huney is angry n worried. . . yeap he came up wit tha best solution . . . to find an office job. . i totally agree. . m not strong like last time. . i been masking maself for time to time. . its time to stop putting up a smile actiing as if everything is allright. . . he dun allow othars to bully me n taken an extra care of me. . m touch. . thanks dearie. . scold me when m wrong. . shower me wit endless love when i needed it. . . i cant sleep at night. . . ma stomach is hurting badly. .

he followed me to an event. . in tha invitation card , "nur&suffi" hahahs. . feeling married gitu . . . its an celebration cum bridal display. . . wow! tha performances was fabulous n tha place was jam packed. . security was tight. . . food was great. . .ma syg was soo supportive. . entertaining me. . ma brother. . n aint forgetting tha drag queens! hhahhahs! damm cute lah he. . he hold on to me tightly when tha wedding display was out. . m aint taking tha hint dearie. . its too early. . imagine one gay wanna share ma bf wit him? hahahs! i dun wan ma bf to be shared!! they say hes cute. . ya right. . tha cute is for me. .if u r reading this.. jangan marah! more pics from tha event. . too lazy to upload it. . .

its funny isnt it when ma bf is 23 n hes looking 16-18 years old? but oh well. . m short anyway . . hahahs. . suffi has changed. . nora. . he does. . thanks dear for waking me up. . he dun wanna hurt me anymore. . i always thought a guy always says he will change but lied. . i put tha mindset to him n m freaking out to hes changes. . m only asking for one. . n hes changing for more. . . he tends to be a great listening ear to ma problems. . he knows most of ma friends are gays. . he open up his mind n mix around wit them like they are hes old friends. . he endure that company which he onces hate. . he doesnt throw hes temper around. . he tends to get calm n solve tha problem together. . n for once. . m feeling tha luckiest on this 8th of tha month. . he hates watching movie as its a waste of money. . but for now. . he watches. . although hes tired n sleepy from hes work. .

if i make a mistake. . he speaks softly n maintain hes tone. . darling i will change too. . give me time. . it aint always ur fault . . . i hap to stop being naggy n stubborn headed. . u have to focus on ur werk. . earn big bucks. . get ur bike license back. . if thats what u wanted. .its been 18th month already!

to ma aunt if u r reading this.. . pardon me if i totally cant attend to ur hum on hari raya since m too exhausted from werk n m feeling weak all i want is to sleep!

to han! i miss u!! can follow me go rumah busu for raya visits?

i hope u guys had a great hari raya. . . i love u guys . . . but ma love for ma bf is growing intensely. . .i lup u huney. . mwaacks!

-take care guys-

2006-10-01T21:18:00.000-07:00

hey peeps. . . . . alright. . . m having a bad stomache now n i hap soo much to tell u! This happens on Friday, "MY LOVELY SAMSOON" actor, the one that played as HENRY the DOCTOR came to HMV! man! he was sooo HANDSOME n CHARMING! ma clique, MING YI cried and was stunt as she was tha one whu served him! hahahas! i was off so . . i miss that chance of having a photo-taking with him! I came back on Saturday . . n guess what? After breaking ma fast. . me n Aldrin was going down tha escalator to level 1 when suddenly ma guy caught up wit this gorgeous blue eye guy. . u know whu? HRITIK ROSHAN! imagine me. . whispering below ma breath HRITIK ROSHAN n was nearly set to tears! he was that hot!! oh ma gosh! m an avid fan of his!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he just wave n smile! how obssesed could i be? well i photo copy his cresdit slip . . a picture n a signature on his latest movie "KRISH" which was filmed in Singapore! Sunday wasn't a great day to work. . . was bullied by razzeeq n was alone in tha whole department till 11pm! being a chatty person . . i felt like a loner!

Allah has answered ma prayers! He has returned ma huney behaviour back to normal. . . hes sudden change in behaviour for tha past 1 week truly kills me n his close friends. . we are unable to detect tha problem. . but i know its unusual of him to act like this. . . i wasn't treated like his little girl . . at first it puzzles me too much but i decided to endure the pain n let me suffer n pray to god. . hes keeping a secret. . hes hurt . . hes too pressurise till he doesnt realise whu he is in tha past week. . . i spoke to his closest buddy. . . we both came to tha same conclusion. . to pray for him n lift hes spirit up . . .

Yesterday night. . spoke to Rashid for an hour. . . i gave huney a msg which wake him up. . . he was embarassed by himself. . he apologise tha way he mis-treated me, hes attitude for tha past week . . . he totally lost control . . he doesnt know whu he is. . we reflect hes behaviour. .n only that point was his realisation. . .

Woke up this morning feeling kinda blue. . . ma stomach was growling. . it was diarrhoe. . . thanks to ma itchy finger to try "SIPUT" knowing ma allergy to it. . hehehes. . . huney woke me up at 10.40am n told me he aint in HMV anymore. . . i knew this is coming . . i could sense it n i was prepared. . . I know Rashid was aint happy since hes best bud was gone. . huney left a msg to Rashid which touched me. . . " PLs take care of NUr, i dun wan anythang to happen to her. .anythang just call me . . we will meet again thats 4 sure"
He doesnt sound happy. . but he has no temper n take thangs easy. . . frm there . . i know ma prayer was answered. . i get ma old SUFFI back. . tha guy i once admired n loved. .
As he told me tha news of him leavin HMV. . drops of pearl tickling ma cheecks. . i will misses him soo much. . . soo much which i cant describe. . theres aint no one to run an errand 4 me. . get 4 me ma chocolate each n everyday! but hey! i thought. . we will try our best to get tha same OFF days . . we dun haf to make this relationship a HUSH HUSH anymore. . though i cant see him everyday. . but we will try n get tha same OFF daes since in HMV its a far cry to get tha same day. . . tha trill of going hum together n having dinner is where our time of loved was shared. . .

he went back to office n he received a great news! he could start werking on a new assignment tomorrow! n i guess some of his pay shortages was paid! he apologise to all tha office people for creating trouble that past week. . . he totally felt like a jerk. . m proud of ma huney! alhamdullilah.. syukur. .ma prayer was answered. . everythangs back to normal. . he's back to hes old self already . . . that sincere,responsible,stubborn-headed guy i once admired. . .
i love his new job!! i love his new job! m jumping wit joy cause y? i will get some priviledge! n he works 8am to 8pm! such a flexible timing! m soo estatic!

alright now . . . hes treating me to a feast of ma bbq wings satay! n we are watching STAY ALIVE! i love him to bits man! all bills on him! hahahas!!!! dun cry syg when u see ya bank balance. . . next week ma turn to blanja. . .

N LAST THING! M GETTING N73 on In 3 Days time! wheesh!!! m soo darn happy!!!!!!!!!!! m jumping wit joy! thats an expensive phone. . . huney knows i hate nokia but oh well. . i try to love it cause thats tha firstnokia phone m attracted at!!!

i betta get going! m craving for ma food, breaking fast wit him n at last . . . after a month. . spending qualitied time. . . just tha two of us. . . i will treasured all tha moments m going tru for this fasting month . . . i love u huney. . . i love u. . .

atuk n nenek. . . i know u have been reading ma prayers.. . i miss u. . i wanna spend anothar hari raya wit u . . . . .

mwaaaaccks!!!!

p.s! i have cut ma hair. . . hehhehes. . . mum hates it! friends lup it!

2006-09-21T04:59:00.000-07:00

holla people! a good day to you hanif and shak! i lup u both to bits! mwaacks! yes yesh! i know im aint been updating this blog but m committed to ma job. . . hahahahs. . .

lifes been great for both of us. . . ma huney is under lots of pressure lately. . . family and work. . i got to be by his side for that period of time. . . you know guys. . han n shak . . getting to know his family background . . i tend to appreciate ma family values much more. . . i have learn to compromised things with ma mum . . . n tune in to ma " deaf ear " radio station! hehehs. . . he always scolded me if i shouted at ma mum . . i have learnt that. . trust me. . controlling ma anger on her wasnt easy as i thought. . but wit his help. . i haf learned tha ways . . . he told me. . one fine day. . . they will come crawling to you . . . begging for ur help. . . let them gain their victory for this time being. . . sooner or later. . . its urs. . . when we shared a life together . . trust me . .

how much i have treasured his care n concern. . but yet m contacting ma ex's. . . at first i was angry wit hes way of attacking him. . . but in times to come i set ma thought thinking. . .
god has granted ma prayer. . . ma grandparents haf listen to ma prayer. . . they gave me a life that cud care for me. . scolded me when m in tha wrong. . pampered me when i deserved it. . . . a listening ear. . . what more must i ask? he showers me tha love i always wanted. . he earns money for the future . . he works day and night so that he cud get a good life in tha future. . someone whu values monay . . . someone whu haf set his goals right. . he aint a big spender . . making me felt m someone valuable to him but on top of that someone whues so stubborn that makes him hard to handle. . .
from than on. . i regretted what i haf done. . . n to be frank to u guys. . .
this is tha first time in ma life. . . ma closest friends supported ma relationship. ..
whitney loves him n always advices me " IF HE EVER WANTS TO LET GO OF U. . OR VICE VERSA, NEVER! CAUSE SEEEING U BOTH TOUCHED ME N MAKES ME LEARN THA RIGHT WAY TO BE LOVE. U R A LUCKY BITCH"

wit. . i shall nevar forget that. . . i will heed that advice. . . i haf talk to him . . both of us r changing for the better . . . hehehes! even witney aunty " aunty jac" han remembered her? hahahs. . . yeap! they said me n ma guy are a perfect match! he loves him . . maybe caused hes a quiet guy? hahahs. . . .

work has been hectic . . . but yeap. . it was fun! pay day coming! i cant wait!! wee heesss!!! m gonna plan ma monay right wit tha help of ma huney! hahahahas!!!

i love u dearie. . . lup u hanif shak gurlfren. . . n hey hirin. . . i miss u!

mwwaaacks to all! mwaaacks!

2006-08-24T08:31:00.000-07:00

olah people! just a short . . sweet and simple blog for you guys. . . so huney decided to switch hes job. . . its a pain to see him go away leaving me stranded at ma work place alone. . but well i guess he just doesnt want any crisis to occur in tha upcoming future. . .

i been bullied at work by all tha boys! 1 by 1! dun wanna b tha youngest and tha only gal! so much for being pampered! was off for two days and theres alot of magazine returns and theres lots of free gifts! was pissed wit huney cause he didnt kept some for me . . . knowing i was off . . i was devastated and blame tha boys. . . hehehs. . when suddenly . . i was about to go hum rashid showed me all tha gifts! wow! christina collectable lipstick pen! i lioke! PINKY PINKY! hahahas! every at ma werkplace knows m tha pinky tha youngest. . tha favourite one to be bullied :( i get two set of slippers! tha black one wit butterfly design and a blue wit dots alongside it! and to add on a make up! BRONZER! hahas! i was so happy! thanks rashid!!!! thanks for thinking of me and being tha fortunate one to get all those great freebies! YIPEES!

huney does full shift today and accompanied him for hes second meal. .he told me hes plan and well as much as its hard to agree but as a gf . . he gets all ma support he needs. . . i just dun wanna this to be a bonkers and led this to a castle i build down tha drain. . . seperate working place. . gonna be sucky. . moreover getting tha same off day was a far cry. . .

i could only pray to god to bless this relationship of ours. . . . i understand y very much he dedicated tha song NOVEMBER RAIN by GUNS N ROSES to me. . singing it to me. . cause of tat day that he heard ma sobs and dun wanna make me cry again. . gosh . .its exactly what happen . . m darn embarrased. . its okie dearie . . . apology accepted just takmo uat lagi kie?

and as for now. . . m gonna slip tite. . . working tomorrow. . . eyes shutting down. . i love u many many sayang. . . mwwaaaaacccks!!!!!!

han. . . next week. . an outing for us? i miss u sooo sooo much!

kiss kiss hug hug to everyone!

-pinkies sanoritas-
*out*

2006-08-22T20:19:00.000-07:00

OLah peeps! ok so i was off and woke up extra early at 8.00am to wake ma huney up for werk. . . i know hes tired. . . hes immune system was in an unstable condition. . . tha phone start ringing but no one was picking it up. . . i was so worried . . . i called again at 8.30am. . . up to no avail. . . he aint picking it up. . . okie nur. . b prepared. . he aint going to werk. . . i went back to slip till 12.59pm and received no miss call from ma phone. . .

i tried ma luck again and gip him a call. . . he pick it up in the tone -"HALF ASLEEP". Hes CLIQUE rashid called me and ask bout ma huney. I tell rashid tha truth and dun get tha wrong idea of ma huney playing AIRWALL. Hes supervisor is pissed wit him . . due to hes frequent latecoming attitude . . sayang sayang. . that part u got to change tau. . i know ur shift sucks n stuff. . . u been working full shift wit no off day everyday and plus this week u need to continue tha night shift. . . but punctuality is a must. . cannot always late. . 10 mins late 10 dollers deducted from ya pay . . isnt that a waste?

this few days he had difficulty breathing due to hes heavy smoking routine everyday. . . ur lips are getting darker . . pls lah dear. . . for tha sake of health. . cut down that cigratte addiction. . . went to raffles clinic ma family doctor . . didnt follow him in cause m aint his wife nor fiancee right? damm i shud haf followed! this gundu here doesnt know how to speak to tha doctor and talk bout his illness! hes scared of X-RAY n stuff! shit! he got 1 day MC but tha doctor cant detect his illness. . . funny right? but hes body is getting weaker n weaker. . . plus that he got to fetch his granny to hes place after that. . . . .

Anyways meet Whitney at the AIRPORT! n her burfday is coming. . . hmm. . what shud i get for her? any ideas anyone? lup that bitch to death! her chalet is at 2nd september. . . ma clique wedding RAfI is on 2nd september and i end werk around 7.30pm! help! i dun know where to go . . both was ma first priority!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

plus that i got to go out wit ma huney. . . we need those quality time. . . aint easy to go out. . . felt like taking an MC on 2nd September! too many stuff to be done! HELP ME!

ok i might think of changing job but that depends cause i got to wait till ma expired comfirmation by HMV! if its getting to late n been delayed i guess i got to change a job wit a better pay. . . as for now its only been in ma mind but thinking of leaving HMV leaves a deep impact in ma heart cause everyone seems like a family. . . a big family to me. . . i misses everyone. .

u guys hap a great day ahead. . . lup u! mwaaaccks! take care!

2006-08-19T02:30:00.000-07:00

something weird happens to me the other night. . . .
ma love boat wasn't sailing us to love paradise but instead a paradise seems so deserted and dull. . . . and thats what happening to us for tha pass three days. . . . its hard to conquered tha feelings especially if ya in tha same workplace especially is its a hush hush relationship and only tha closets clique knows it and we tried our very best to smile to each other and communicate even though tha heart is aching badly. . . . . .

Tha root to this problem is clashing of shift and aint spending time with each other for one straight week. . . . i was shocked by myself i could endure this burden lack of communication,qualitied time spend but yet deep inside i love him very much . . . i am shocked. . totally . . .

i was under alot of streesss. . .financially adding to it is ma mum. . . what can one do when no one showers love to u but urself? spending tha nights alone . .feeling empty in ur heart. .longing for someone to hold u and said everything going to be alright. . . i'm getting sick of this sickness and only " LOVe" would be tha right medication. . .

t hanks rahim for being there for me. . he knows ma guy is at fault and so am i for not giving in . . . but he told me this ," if hes fire. . u got to be tha water . . just like what i did to all my friends" i am always tha water . . soothing off every problems. . i spend a few minutes thinking of it, finally i pluck ma courage to call him even though ma heart was hurting . . .
he uses his ego wit his stubborness denying every fault in purpose of hurting me again. . . i asked him to go to sleep and shut tha phone. . . i breakdown after that n cried ma heart out. . . i cant stand that attitude but deep down i love him so much. . . i decided to dial rahim no. . . but guess what guys? i heard his voice! appearantly.. . i did not shut tha phone properly and he hearrd ma cries n sobs! oh gosh! imagine ma embarassment! i kept denying i cried but he knows it and apologise. . . i ponder to maself . . . .
i totally remembered shutting tha phone of but y is he online? Was this a new creation by god to ma life?

rahim was shocked and laugh out loud! he cant stand laughing and glad we both make up. . . . ma supporter on ma relaltionship. . . hahahs. . .

i love this guy. . . . i didnt mind giving in. . . with this argument we just had we learned both faults never to repeat it again . . . .

i leave tha rest to god. . . i have to be tha most understanding person to him and conquered tha most stubborn person i known in ma life . . . .' HIM'

thangs haf go on track. . . i will try to take it as much as i could. . . but if theres no way to handle. . .god will show me tha way . . i love tha way he brought me to this love life m going tru. . . he's tender n full of spice. . . we could never fight facing each other but on tha phone is where tha problem lies. . .

i have given up in tha matter of tha heart(TO BE IN LOVE). . . i cant be bothered of monthly anniversary . . m just waiting for tha right one to blew me away. . . . if its him im blessed but i just wanna him to be a better man . . thats ma only wish. . . . i dun wanna him to see me shed unhappy tears instead tears of joy but god had shown him ma unhappy tears but y? m clueless. . . .

hey hirin . . i know ya reading this. . .. hirin ur matter wit zell is an easy one. . that happens to me before but sometimes both parties haf secrets that couldnt be shared. . . guys preferred to shared secrets solely to themself aint us gal forever reporting to our boyfriends. . . hahahas. . . hope everythang happen as per normal for u both . . . . n sweetie ya new bloggy aint any tagboard. . . :( anyways take care n hap a great day ahead. .

hanif! call ma HP! 98777947! i hope u know that! n huney i lup u. . mwaacks!

-pinkis sanoritas- signing off!

2006-08-13T03:55:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey people! oh man yesterday was a lovely outing wit ma dearie though he maked me pissed in tha beginning . . . . i love you honey. . . very much. . . u just brighten ma day though m unable to confess it to you yesterday. . . . oh ma gosh! i had tha best view of fireworks! it was darn exquisite and i just cant stop going , " WOW" ! hahahaS! it was darn jam pack. . . takmo buat lagi k syg? dawling was feeling restless waiting there was 2 and half hour was it was amazing. . . i love it! huney knows how much i misses NORA! oh gal. . i miss u! so he offered to meet her after work and had dinner. . hes treat! Wheesh! he treated NORA n ME! its just so wonderful! i had a great time. . . i would never forget those whispers u gave me . . though warm hugs that gips butterflies everywhere. . . and everyday waking up and feeling blessed to haf someone like you . . Someone whu has tha future plans ahead. . everythang all set. . . u r very pampered . . n oh damm funny. . "CUTE" tha right word. . .

oh man! whuever reading this dun u get shocked! ma mummy wanna me to get engaged next year . . . hur hur. . chill down ma spine. . . marriage is a big commitment of lifetime. . . n getting engaged. . . hmmm. . . scary. . . hey loook there aint any proposal and m aint rushing time yet. . theres to many stuff and bills ma huney gotta settle! oh not to say our handphones bill! this is going crazy! we reduces all those talks and messages. .

hey hirin if ya reading this. . how cum i didnt bum into u yesterday for tha fireworks? i think we are at tha merlion there. . . rite?how i wish i bump into u. . . .

i haf found ma mr.perfect! i lup u many many! mwaaccks!!!

blessed u guys and hanif n shak! i wan tha free movie tickets!!!!!!

2006-07-23T23:31:00.000-07:00

olah everyone. . . yeap its been few days since i last updated. . been too busy. . .
came back at 12am , 12.30am. . . so its darn tiring. . .

u know every of ma off days seems so dull without him . . whenever its ma off day hes werking till late or if its his off day im werking till late. . . m missing him soo much. . . too much these werds cant explain. . .

i told u dearie before hand. . m off on the 8th of august and 9th of august . . . yet u dilly dally and u cant get each of tha days off. . . he called me at 12.10pm when m asleep, telling me he cant get either day off. . . i dunno y m i so emotional that i cried . . weeping in silence and felt hurt. . . i mean we been seeing each othar at werk but we cant communicate since its a hush hush relationship . . . we aint been siting in tha same table eating a decent meal together. . . nor i get a hug or kisses from u. . . just a virtual kisses each day that we shared on tha phone. . which so called , " good night kiss " , " good morning kiss" and " i love u kiss" . . .hahahas. . . 2 weeks or aint going out its a killer to me. . . . i dun wanna bring this matter up as i dun wanna start an argument n end up losing you. . . i will take care of this myself. . . sometimes i tried to refrain maself from getting in contact with othar guys whu cud bring me out n enjoy tha day wit me. . . but hell no. . . i want u. . . well for this love sake. . . i will persevere till the day we cud enjoy a day out together :)

whitney ma darling. . . u better take care of ya health. . .this is going to be bad. . . heck tha arul for once. . . i know that love is sinking. . but if u just cant save it without ur pirates. . . im so sorry darl. . . i wud cum to tha same conclusion. . . he aint tha one for u. . . u just got to accept tha fact. .

ladies. . . how many off u agreed with me. . . .
when ur bf told ya " i miss u baby" and he end up cancel tha plan of meeting or vice versa. . . do u felt like being cheated wit tha beauty of tha word " i miss u"? u wud question urself , " if he misses me so much so do i . . . y must he do this to me? he really misses me he must make tha effort to see me even for awhile. . . if a lady cud that y cant tha man?" well gals. . . thats y we cud say sometimes guys cud be very " DUMB" and " INSENSITIVE" to our feelings. . . because of this two nouns that we are using on them . . . it leads to an argument n tends to be a subject in each and every argument .. . .

whitney ma dear. . . just take thangs path by path aite dearie? know that i love u. . u always haf me by ur side. . . ma ears and shoulders are all there for u whenever u need me switheart. . i love u. .

to all ma old fwens. . know that i would nevar forget u. . . i miss u guys and wish theres gathering for everyone!!!!!!!

u all been missed! i love u!

mwwaacks!

syg. . . i love u soooo much! mwwaaacks!

2006-07-14T03:50:00.000-07:00

Olah people! Hows life? man its 6.45pm in tha evening in m just awake. . . hmms y m i awake this early? u wanna know y? cause m overnight at ARANDA Country Club n went hum about 8am! it was great when everyone that werks tom went hum n we had a blasting time in tha room! hahahahs! i laugh till ma stomach hurts one of a kind. . . Alvin wont let me live in peace even when m peeing. . . . he kept on scaring me. . . U bloody idiot! u gonna get it on Saturday . . . Celina said no crying. . . right. . . no crying. . . thank god m off today or else there will be alot of crying. . .

A sweet lady wit tha natural beauty. . . u will be miss Celina. . I swear . . all tha best. .

Waited for tasha, matt, nicole and Farhan till 11pm! Thank god ma huney and me working tha same shift . . . he accompanied me to put ma bag at hum . . had prata at tha newly opened cafe near ma house . . ok ma mum exaggerated it again. . its every banquet has it like bugis and bishan but tha prata is nice. . that one i know ;) i had a great bus ride wit him playing cards and hes singing dangdut songs to me. . man that was hillarious. . haiz dawlin y are u born to be so cute? geram aku. . . hahahs. . .
i love you tau syg n m worried for ur health. . each passing day i would thank god but sending you to ma life . . . . ever so manja . . and ever so full of love. . m lucky aint any othar gals get u. . i love u. . . mwaaaacccks!

Pat! We are tha last one standing. . maybe because those idiots are drunk. . gosh drunk people scares me off sometimes but cud make me laugh! had a great time talking to Pat n Tay . .
Speaking of werk . . . cud turn hillarious. . .

u guys brighten ma day n i love u!

take care all. . i miss u!
mwwaaccks!

2006-07-11T23:51:00.000-07:00

OLah people. . . . this few days m full wit ups and down . . . had a tiff wit him due to some work problem but what i love is tha way we compromise thangs n how we made it up . . . . i know its his fault at work but its somethang accidental and his team should not haf blame his throughly . . . i totally pity him but its okie dear. . im right beside u. . .

went to haf supper wit tha rest n aftar that we leave them n went our seperate places. . we were strolling frm dhoby to city hall to raffles to clarke quay. . . i just love tha breeze there and also tha taxi fare wold be cheaper. . . . we chill there for awhile. . . standing near tha bridge with him hugging me frm behind n whispering in ma ears a never endless " I LOVE U" " I SAYANG U" wit his sincere apology. . . i never been pampered this much by a guy. . someone whum i could laugh and joke around n make fun off. . . hes tha sweetest and the dearest . . . i aint gonna joke about but this feelings is so real. . . its always me whu poured tha love but this is anothar way round. . .

how fast love could progress. . from a stranger . . to a crush. . a friend . . n rite now a lover. . . .

hey stays in bukit batok while me in simei . . but yet he doesnt mind adding tha extra cash to send me hum first for an extra time . . . i didnt talk much on ma way hum . . . he apologise and . . hug me tightly. . . played his hands around ma hair. . n continue whispering , " I LOVE U" . . kissing ma cheeck n ma hair. . .

i just closed ma eyes . enjoying those mesmerising time of tha ride. . . felt asleep, using his chest as a pillow. . . while he watching tha road. .

darling i swear u are tha sweetest thing i ever had. . . i will always wipe ur sweat frm ur forehead whenever u nid me too ;)

seoul garden was a blast! i enjoyed it wit all ma ever so crazy human in HMV. . oh yeah! next is SAKURA buffet on out pay day! tomorrow would be CELINA our HMV HR farewell party . . . we will miss u CELINA . . its a lost for HMV losing such a woman wit an extra caliber. . . we gonna torn n wit all this insane people to light up tha night! we will rock tha party! hahahaS! thank god friday m off!

cant wait till ma department opened. .

n oh yea! that day discuss wit whitney n rahim on our bangkok trip end of tha year n we are so on for it! wheeEssH! i cant wait! we gonna had a blasting time ! SHOPPING time for NUR!

whitney meet me n suffi and gave a compliment that we look cute together. . so compatible. . . thanks darl for tha honest compliment. . m touch n i love u and all tha best wit u and arul! oh dun forget our pool competition!

han n shaq n gurlfrens. . . i rindu sama U! mwaaaccks!

love everyyone many many! MWAAACCKS!

2006-07-04T08:21:00.000-07:00

my daes aint getting better . . . been working and work is piling up none stop . . magazines after magazines. . . we barely haf time to go out. . . this saturday reservist and meet u aftar tat! hahahahs! i won tha race! so u owe me one long john meal of ma choice! hehehes. . . we tok on tha phone and im working 6 days straight . . . hahahs. . . good 4 u nur. . . wanna saturday off so much. . . its okie for an outing!yesh! whitney ma darling i will see u tom! damm babe! i miss u soo much!

m working B shift alone today! all i know i been eating junk food none stop! RASHID! i need ur peanut butter sandwich! help me!

m werking till 11pm everyday! man this is tiring . . thank god i haf ma health supplement to give me strenght. . .

hey mr botak. . i know ya reading this. . . its okie i undarstand ya feelings n u nid a cool off but pls just message me n stuff so i could feel if ya alright? u take care k . . . just enjoy your time wif your car!

k i wanna slip n call ma huney. . . . catch ya soon!

lup u all many many! mwaaccks!

2006-06-29T04:30:00.000-07:00

OLah! Firstly i am too busy enjoying working and with tha renovation and stuff at werk, ma schedule is too hectic that i aint got any time to catch wit ma peeps nor enjoying ma own time but all i knows m enjoying ma day wit him each passing minute . . . . hes tha crazy clone of mine . . it was so freaky that we both seems like twins. . we hate durians . . not even tha smell, tha way we eat . . tha speed of walking. . tha food we love. . tha same orders and tha way we appreciate wat love is and tha feelings of being love. . . gosh suffi . . u freak me out . . n even our birthmarks! now tell me. . . how freaky could it get? never i feel this deep and indept love like u gave me . . i swear i am the luckiest gal in tha world! ya so cute n tha no 1 most vainpot guys i ever met! mwwaacks! i love u lah baby! i guess i am tha most avid fan of urs in tha world!

ok so i went genting n kl wit whitney ma dearie! had a blasting time laughing n joking out loud! spending time with each others for 3 days wit aint any curfews . . HALELUJAH! i loike!

for now peeps HMV level 1 is closed for 2 month to be given a new look! wHEEsh! i missed ma level 1! thats ma department and we are despatched to diff department and m in l2! rock n pop cum dance section! its fun but on tha othar hand its tiring me badly. . .
We can danced and sing like nobody business and ma dearie is werking till 11pm! hahas! happy werking dawlin!

had satay at lau pa sat wif him and othars . . . damm tha satay is good but i had a great heart to heart tok wit me n whispered to me , " will u marry me " . . . n u know what i did? i give him a blank look . . hahahs . . hes saving monay for tha marriage but i prefer to take things slow. . i wanna him to propose to me properly. . not tat grand but when i am ready. . . but for sure i know . . deep inside ma heart. . hes tha one. . . this feelings tells me too. .

n with him . . tha feelings of saving monay for marriage is essential. . . i just dun know y n could figure it out. . . hes had tha heart of botak . . pure n sincere . . hes great in tha outside. . he could dance and joke n make fun of himself like me. .

to botak. . .
m sorry if i were to hurt ur feelings but we got to face tha fact that what makes our bonding n relationship so strong nowadays is due to friendships n lets remain for whu we are now . . u are ma good friend . . let it be that way . .

Tom SEOUL GARDEN outing wit ma HMV peeps! ma ever so crazy humans in ma life! i love u guys!

i have too may pics from ma outings that i aint got any time to upload it . . so sorry guys but i have a few great pictures recently. . . take a look n a pic of ma lawlin . .

* trust me he looks better in life . . hes eye bag is due to lack of sleep n over work!! c dear. . told ya to rest. . sorry k dear i crop ma photo as ma face sucks . . ;) *

till here than . .lup u all everybody! mwwaacks!

2006-05-31T20:16:00.000-07:00

hello people! good mawnin! darn. . i slept at 4am chatting wif whitney darl .. . crazy bitch! indeed an indepth talking and cant wait for us to enjoy our holiday . . darl 1 more week to go! hahahas!!! shop like crazy there! work was good but m gonna miss matthew tasha n all tha visual staff! Y U GUYS HAP TO SHIFT TO LEVEL 3? HMV i hate u for making me a loner soon to be. . ok. . perhaps not much but all ma CHA-CHA ASSOCIATION is at level three!!! fridae erica ramzi n me will b at force! oh gosh! how r we gonna cope!!! we wud go bonkers shouting n dancing n doing stupid thangs!! ggrrrrrrrrrr! god save me! i miss them!

RENT VCD is out ! at last! at last! at last! thank god! y took it so long? what a waste of time. . .

speaking of entertainment i am too UPSET wit X-MEN 3! same goes to ma clique! its like watching spiderman wit one hero n few powers.. . . look .. ROGUE has a powerful thing that cud beat JEAN a.k.a PHOENIX! n most of what was shown in tha MARVEL x-Men was aint showing there. . . serious X-MEN 2 deserved a big round of appplause!!

SHaq n TAsh! THis SATURDAE! we rantap tha shopping center! miss u dearie!!!

till than. . i gtg n get ready for werk! take care! MWwaaacks!

-NUr saNoriTas-

2006-05-24T21:31:00.000-07:00

woah! its been a month eversince i start updating my blog! i misses u guys so much! ma life has been pretty great! ma burfday cuming n it just seems solemn enough. . . but wait! ma darl whitney is going to genting cum KL celebrating a belated birthday wif me there! hahahas! m so darn happy! i just cant wait! JUMP JUMP! oooh i love her. . . darl i love so much! we gonna hap fun in tha hotel room . . . flirting wit tha KL freaks? hmm hell no. . . . i wish DJ TIESTO is in Sepang again . . . sucks bigh tyme. . . his album is in tha chart n i wanna shout out to all tha fans there. . . ITS SUPERP! rite Matthew n Tasha? can't stop our body grooving even at work . . ..

these word seems so hard to describe. . . i wanna shout a big I LOVE YOU to all HMV associates! u guys makes me feel as i was back in ma secondary school life! working there involves part of life that i live with. . . MUSIC n MOVIES. . . . something which i cant share wit ma peeps as we are a special breed. . . .
yes. . . everyone will say they love music but only a certain genre or music which is in tha chart. . . but we got to love every genre in order to appreciate what music is. . MUSIC is UNIVERSAL. . its just how you bring urself up to love tha music or else u wud be jeopardise n labelled MINAH N MAT! wit all their fave music called REGGAE which if i were to question tha real songs of reggae they dun undarstand. . . n to othars whu loved it. . seems unfair enough but we belong to tha group without us realising it. . .

Mat n MInahs only appreciate JIWANG SONG. . . hahahs. . . yesh.. . they shouldnt disturb our music way of life! GO N LISTEN TO RIA OR WARNA! HEll never did they listen to PERFECT TEN nor POWER 98! what tha heck are they doing? SLacking around giving their body away freely. . . . been disturb by this MAt n its killing me. . . look urself in tha mirror.. . . ya full wit tattoo n tapppered pants. . . i know dun judge its book by its cover by well. . . by seeing u that shows how stupid u r appreciating ur life. . . sooner u will regret but theres no way of turning back . . .

PAy day is coming but m aint looking at in. . . cause i will be spending soo much on stuff n bills n till shortage. . . well lets just hope ma aunt remembered ma birthday n pass ma birthday monay if not.. well just forget itt. . . i undarstand. . ma birthday is not even in tha calender. . . .

DA VINCI CODE!! MUST WATCH! I MUST RECOMMEND THIS FULLY TO DEE! SHE WILL LUP IT! is rathar much more indeep in tha movie to tha book!

now darl cuming to ma hum! c u latar darl! i will go get ready to pic u up!! lup u!

love love,
nur sanoritas!

2006-04-24T22:52:00.000-07:00

hellos everyone!
hows life?
hey CT if ya reading this. . . i miss U! i miss tha time when we sing L.O.V.e n start dancing n clapping to tha song! i miss everyone!!

working has made maself too occupied that i dun hap time for ma daily routine as in playing comp n stuff. . . n i have been going thru an emotional breakdown. . .

totally apologise to whoever was affected n thanks for all tha concern n stuff. . .

yeap im getting over it. . thanks people. . . this week i loan take the lead sountrack n juanes latest cd! i love it! catch take the lead 3 bloody times. . . thanks to ma bro n wit! u guys gonna make me sick. . .hahahas! makes me dance to tha tune in tha theathre. . . WIT! i miss u!!

ok! since u people been persuading me .. . alright . . . ma answers is out! 29TH OF APRIL we gonna party!! dun get too excited! hahahahs!!!! since i dock off from werk at 11.15pm! y not?

on tha 29th of april all ma emotional pain will be released. . . . dun stop me from doing anything stupid darl. . . just dun. . .

hey diana ! i lost ya num. . . . do msg me ya num . .

hey hirin . . totally sorry for tha msn thingy. . i was out of ma mind . .. i was going crazy at that point of time . . . ya aint tha only one that get it frm me. . so sorry. . i shut ma msn cause i cant take it any more. . . sorry... would a cofee will do?

m going KL on ma burpdae!! yipee!!

2006-03-30T20:16:00.000-08:00

hey its been so long since i blog. . . pretty busy with my work and trying very hard to save for my Shatec and ma Bike license. . .

my life has took for a change. . . guys been starting to get my numbers even when im at work. . hey pls dun go to me for loooks. . . .

to botak. . . here this. . we may be taking a break right now but hey if its destinied yeap. . we would be back together again . .

im free! i love to feel tha air of freedoom . . i need time off. . . ma heart been knocked by 2 guys . . . its not tha burning desire of love that m looking for. . its tha mixture of personality by both of them that i want. . .

Baby. . . u are forever tha best dude and boyfriend that i have always looked for and into. Thanks for being a gentlemen. . . we are still contacting. . it seems how strong this relationship had lead us to. . . infact by taking a break from ourself. . . there's more comfy and bigger wings to fly!

love is a paradox. . . im beginning to worship this motto. . . i have stop myself from getting to know boys . . . cigratte is ma boyfriend for now. . .

i guess i have master tha bibble of love. . . tha bibble which i try to master all this years in order not to hurt any party. . . understanding and honesty is tha best priority. . . . but what happen if complication takes away those meaning of bibble? whu should i turn to? Oh god. . if only i could communicate with u. .. please show me whues tha prince charmning of ma life. . . .

quit playing games wit ma love life. . i had enuf. . y must anothar certain someone come by? or perhaps i hap not found ma perfect husband?

i had been dreaming an unknown guy in ma dreams after so much prayers to u. . is that a message or an illusion? oh god. . tell me if its true. . .

people around me told me i deserve a perfect one. . . both telling me tha same answer. . . u have tha looks wit a bonus personality. . . but does tha true? or aint that just sweet words?

im still young. . . 18 infact. . i dun need to be captured and locked in a cage . . . i have make this clear to ma boyfriends. . . u r not my husband. . . ma freedoom is not urs. . . whu i wanna be with got nuthang to do wit u. . . tha freedoom that u could inquire from me is just minimal. .

i hap to stop losing weight and cut ma hair bald. . will that stop from u guys loving me and stop all this complication? if yes i would!

god. . . stop this complication. . . . i wanna found ma perfect one. . have i yet or not? it bears a burden in ma heart to be knock twice . . . dun put a thrice in it. . .

guys tell me. . . how could i stop all this complication??? im losing grip . . . yesh i do. . .

love,
me

2006-02-01T20:13:00.000-08:00

HeY Peeps. . . ok i got to apologise for aint updating ma blog for quite some times. . im just too busy and occupied with ma personal life and going for job interviews!! Hey guess what? Just receive a call from HMV for ma 2nd INTERVIEW! Tomorrow at 11am!! Hahahs!! M so HapPy!! Now people jump wit me! Shake wit me!! HahahasS!! m going bonkers! Now tell me . . .how am i supposed to apologised to Diana for tomorrow? Got to cancel ma date wit her and bringing a surprised guest for her? Diana im so so sorry just that Mr.Perfect.Guy has to work . . Not enough strength . . really sorry. . we changed tha date to 7th Febuary. . POssible to meet u on that day? Anyway wanna go tanning dear on ur off day?? LOL. .

Valentines day is coming! loL! For those whues single. . hey not to worry. . valentines day is to spread some love around u. . u could buy a rose for me for all u want ma friends! LOL! U could celebrate wit all tha ladies thats single or wit ur loved ones. .

I hap a surprised celebration for Valentines day which m clueless! Mr Feddly could u just tell me? Dun hap to hush about it right?

I learned from Diana that loved couldnt be forced. . No matter how great or perfect that guy could be, but if u still loved that ugly clay which u been moulding all this while, its hard for you to let it go. . .

Well as for me right now, NUR falls in tha section of LOVE N TRAUMA . . . suspicious? All i know im missing him badly. . . yesh him. . it hurts me deeply but i have to heal those scars away and just blame maself. . . time for me to get a new life. . 2006! Whats tha greatest deal? MONEY MAKING YEAR FOR ME!

Hirin whats up wit u losing that mp3? are u psycotic or insane enough? LOl. . guess ya becoming like me. . misplacing and lost stuff eventually. . .

Now i gotta get ready and meet up wit ma younglings!! Pick them up from school! Oh hanif and Shak! I miss U guys vely tha much! aInt forgetting GURLFWEN! ;)

Mwwaaccks! LUp u aLl many many! DeE IM sORRy. . . REalLy sorry! :(

2006-01-20T17:53:00.000-08:00

I HAVE LET MA CHEST OUT! I HAVE EMPTIED MA LUNGS OUT! I WANNA SHOUT OUT LOUD!!!!!! OH dIaNa! aku SUnGGuH HapPY! LOl!

DiaNA. . DUn LEaK anYTHanG aITe? ITs BItWeeN Us. . SsshhhSSS. . .

OKies Dee. . GUeSS u KNOw whats ma answer right? YEap. . . GUeSS riTe. . . i realised i hap to let it out and start a new life for 2006!

People changed for tha better and so am I. . . 2006 feels great! i love u 2006!!!!

GUys to thang about it. . . im a happier person right now! Tha feelings is much more realiving and im found tha dream and a perfect guy for ma life. . . how great can tat be?

when ya in love. . thangs took a turn . . . . u tend to become a better person, a change for a lifetime . .
Ok so lets talk about ma synopsis of tha day ;)

Was supposed to teach tuition when thangs took out a turn. . .
Mit hunney at interchange to pass to him ma bag for his work tha next day. He looked rathar Shag. . was having a bad flu n fever. . LOL. . . pIty u. . . so we sat down talking seriously at AFGHANISTAN bus stop . . i was waiting for bus 12 . . all was packed and heavy traffic jam was overflooding tampines! Grrr. . . how much i hated that. . . talk about his school and ma " DILEMMa" thingy. . gosh. . i just cant put ma legs forward to tha bus n go for ma tuition. . he kissed ma shoulder n told to me cancel it. . well i did that cause i find it not a point to go. .looking at tha traffic and ma situation right now. . so we walked to TAMPINES MALL. . LOl. . i just love walking with him. . i dunno. . we could walk for 5 longs hours talking a joking without feeling lethargic. .

Went to TOYS R US. . we just had so much in common. . hahas! we played wit tha toys n oh we just cant stop looking at those cute little babies . . . they are so adorable. . we touch them and play wit them . . its just a kid in me. . LOL. . up till now im surrounded wit childish peeps!! WE sit outside pastamania and had a great talk. . MAn . . . just enjoyed those time with him . .we experienced nature. . . HAhahahas!! Right Baby?

Wanna meet ma aunty and take ma roller blades but she watch MEMOIR OF A GEISHA! Ma story!! Idiot!! LOL! Its okie i could take it some othar time. . . perhaps monday right huney?
LUp U ManY ManY! MwwAAccks!

NExt TRip baBY! FISHING!!! HhahasS!!

HanIF! WHENS OUR ICE SKATING DAY?

LOl! . .

DEe MIsH U DaA. . LOl . . . Thanks for being there for me . . . I love u. .

BAby i love u. . thanks. . its true. .when u know that someone had a crush for u for long . BUT BY BIT U WILL FALL 4 IT. . . If we are meant to be. . .

TAke Care everYOne! PinKies SanOriTas. . SiGnInG OFf. . MwwaaCCks!

2006-01-19T18:07:00.000-08:00

(Kelly)
I love you and I need you
Nelly, I love you, I do,
Need you
No matter what I do....
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you
(Nelly)
Uh-uh
I met this chick and she just moved right up the block from me
And she got the hots for me, the finest thing i'd ever seen
But oh, no, no, she got a man and a son doh-oh, but that’s okay
‘Cuz I wait for my cue and just listen, play my position
Like a shortstop, pick up e’rything mama hittin’
And in no time I better make this with her mine and that’s for sure
‘Cos I-I never been the type to break up a happy home
But uh there’s something ‘bout baby girl, I just can’t leave alone
So tell me, ma, what’s it gonna be
She said, “You don’t know what you mean to me,”
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you
Uh-uh-uh-uh
I see a lot in your look and I never say a word
I know how niggas start actin trippin out here about they girl
And there’s no way-hey-hey Nelly gon' fight ova no dame as you could see
But I like your steeze, your style, your whole demeanor
The way you come through and holler, and swoop me in his two-seater
Now that’s gangsta and I got special ways to thank ya,
don’t you forget it
But uh it ain’t that easy for you to pack up and leave him
But uh you and dirty got ties for different reasons
I respect that and right before I turned to leave
She said, “You don’t know what you mean to me,” come on
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you
Sing it for me, Kelly
I love you and I need you
Nelly, I love you, I do
And it’s more than you’ll ever know
Boy, it’s for sure
You can always count on my love
Forever more, yeah, yeah
East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(‘Cos you don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you
East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right
East coast, you’re still shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, you’re still swingin’ right
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you
Yeah, yeah
East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right
East coast, you’re still shakin’ right
Down south, I see you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, you’re still swingin’ right.
oh

2006-01-16T19:25:00.000-08:00

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

2006-01-16T06:01:00.000-08:00

Its funny right how it seems when things turn to a point when ya desperate for money, desperate for fashion and DESPERATE OF LOSING WEIGHT! Ma lawlin dared me to shed 5kg by our 2nd Year Anniversary! Aww! Its coming nearer and closer to me! Im nervous for tha surprise! Better gip me a good one! Last year was shedding 10kg and i manage it! Hail to tha queen! This year 5 kg. . not bad. . but i will be sweating in tha gym again for u! Honey this is for u.. . . this shows every drops of tha sweat is just for U! Im in love with you! DeePlY as a fact!

Known u for 5 whole years. . chatted wit u. . HATED you to tha extreme but yet fall in LOVE WITH YOU DEEPLY as times to come. . Whats all this? IS this an insane world? Perhaps its FAITH. . .

23 Febuary! Im feeling so nervous. . . tha Hagen Daaze Date with tha gigantic Winne tha Pooh is an unexpected apology date. . ROMANTIC n could make me cry. . i go GI GI GA GA! lol!

Dawlin, theres too many expression and words i could describe tha sweet bitter memory of our relationship but for all I know U R THA ONE FOR ME. . .
i could really count how many fights we had in between this journey of ours. . but theres too many happy moment lasting for us to cherish!

In 2 months time ma hubby will be getting a car! He booked his TP 29 march! Honey! That was fast! Now we been looking tru cars cataloge and pricing via internet. . . Daddys getting car for him . . ITS HIM TO DECIDE! But since i am tha lady boss. . i do have a share in tha decision right? ;) hehehes.. . .

I have an apointment on wednesday! i decided to join CARDIO WORKOUT! how great will that be? u tell me. . . LOL! i'm going to look good! Yesh i do!!!

Ok so last year was candel light dinner after team park! LOL! Tha memories stays vividly in ma mind!

I love u huney. . I should never let u go. . promised.. . .

LUp u many many! MwwaaCKs!

2006-01-08T06:04:00.000-08:00

" Nur count your blessings for tha onces who love u. . U have felt tha love that not any individuals get, UR GRANDPARENTS LOVE. Such a affection love by grandparents are rare and unique. They bid goodbye to u to anothar world is to see u to be somebody. U got to be strong and move on with life. U have me,Hanif,Ur guy. . just count ur blessing. Ya a strong character and that will lead u on. .stay strong babe"

I remember that faithful sentence by ma aunt. . That inspires me to move on with life. Im living in a flamboyant life without a direction to decide. Many will see me as a cheerful character. Someone that cluld brighten your day. But y it seems outraged enough my own FAMILY treated me as disgusting creature? Is it my fault? Do i have to change? To be frank enough, im clueless. . . .

Hanif came to ma house today . . THanks HAN for making ma day! I felt so deserted. Im not in talking terms with my mum.. been mute towards each othar for 2 weeks and i felt immune it. I didnt realise ma bro and ma lil sis been so rude towards me until today. Ma heart felt a prang n felt liked being spank. Arsyi is tha only loved one i can count on. Bahri was acting liked a mat rip. He went out with ma mum and obviously his mind been poison. Y of all people ma bro? Y does he hap that egoistic character that can never be replaced? Y is he so cold to me? Im speechless. . hes too influenced that he tinks hes doing everythang rite. He talks to u that he knows everythang . . he sweet talk ma mum but behind he still went drinking. He has an empty vessels but made tha most noise. He uses strenght to shud me up. SO Y THA FUCK I NEED TO BE THA OLDEST SISTER? Nobody respects nor listen to me. He can beat and scold vulgar to me without a sense of apologising. . Y? Cause ma mum allow it. Y does IFFAH being a bitch to me? BECAUSE MA MUM ALLOW IT! But when she cried and tellt tha whole bout me? Tha story changes and ma life damages!

I dont bother myself telling tha truth to tha jury because i believe im being influence to this motto of ma aunt , " THA TRUTH WILL B OUT SOMEDAY". Ma aunt could choose to be rotten by tha scamp news or believing tha innocense. I dun blame them to believe my mum cause they have a choice and i refuse to judge.

Im financially unstable. I got to sell of ma phone for my own financial security. Drops of pearls flowing ma eyes. . y does ma life got to be this way? BUT HEY! IM STRONG AINT IT? i dun have a circle of friends around me lending their shoulders to cry on. . sometimes even ma guy dun hap tha time. So y depend on them? I'll just hap to struggle. Im a social person but i refuse to keep mum on ma life. Ma tears are dried long time ago. Its time for me to look forward and believe in tha word sacrifice. I work and save tha cash. Only necessities of urs will b bought.

I dun need those skeptical look nor tha nacarsistic comment. Shut ur fuck up! IM alone and im happy with it. . . I too can make a choice of ma own living. And i choose INDEPENT.

Han i promised u, i will be a good mum and thanks for those couraging words. God thanks f0r blessing me external love. PLs grand me tha right path and prove to those villians im SOMEBODY IN THA FUTURE.

Im not writing this to show my pitiful life which seems absurb enough. Im fortunate to still be blessed by love. There are othars thats struggling without family, kin or friends. To all whoes reading this, Thanks for spending some time with me and share a bit and patch a piece of love to me. I love you guys.

To busu and Han, Im blessed to have u. . I love u. .
To B: IM SO IN LUP WIT U. . .

2006-01-05T18:39:00.000-08:00

Hey PeEps! BeeN BUsy at werk lately! Today i aint cumin to werk. . . was too sick! for two bloody days i been talking to customer in ma DRAG voice! Yesh! I had a bad sore throat that i dun know how to describe it! Ma clique was laughing and making fun of me! IDIOT! Yati was calling me transversite! Wat tha heck yati! U wanna me to strangle u issit? Brandon ma boss was joking n humour me all this while! We hap anothar new worker. . no infact two of them! CHERRIE N MABEL! Welcome on board to JT MANAGEMENT CONSULTANCY! was missin Cheryl actually . . until she show up aftar lunch time! We has this crazy indian customer! Who talks about INDIA all tha time! I have been humour by him! Hahahahs!Until i lost ma voice! Sell ma hp for 100 bucks cause i seriously need cash! Im independant rite? hahahas! Gip everyone a packet of Ricola! TOday actually suppose to bring potato chips so everyone can share! Im not there for this miny potato chips party :(

Aftar getttin this job i have 4 calls from all tha jobs i have applied to come to work! Come on! aftar a week or two u gip me a reply? How long must i wait? Too bad people! First u wan mandarin speaking rite? Now u think i hap potential? Ahh fuck it. .

Lunch was great! Had nasi padang! N i taste this POWER pineapple tarts and CHEESE BANGKIT! ma stomach was so full! i stole alot of sample! Kiasu me! Hahahahs!!!

CAnt wait for my pay! I hap to save monay for ma 2 years aniversary giff! What shall i buy 4 him? HMm B! stop peeping! i wun tell u! Bluek! LUp u ma Baby! Must look good on our posh restaurant celebration kie? Cyg U! Mwwwaaaccks! Hug u tite!!! ;)

OKie people! Guess i got to go now! Gonna teach tuition in tha aftarnoon! Lup u all many many! Dee n Hirin especially! How are u guys lately? Tag ma board lah u pantat! Hhahas!

2006-01-03T16:16:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps! Okie lets make it quick! Its 8.21am and i hap 9 mins to blog! Gonna get ready for work!

Work yesterday was great! Infact it went incredibly fine! I met ma clique! There r Kak Yati,Ct and Cheryl! Ma boss is Brandon! At first i was feeling kinda awkward since im tha fist to come to tha office! Brandon asked hows ma new year and stuff, to me it seems like an ice-breaker. Ct came in last for the new comer but damm im shocked! Shes from BMC TANJONG KATONG! what a small world! She told me many appliied for this position but only 3 of us was choosen!

Tha office was filled wit laughter! I didnt realise i was making people laughing their heads off! OK. . what can i say! Ma crazy attitude right? Handling some funny customer. . asking for China GIrls and flirting wit you on tha phone! That was hilarious for me! Whats best is that it was my first call and first sale! I hit tha sales straight away! BRANDON was impressed and rise ma pay to 8 bucks per hour for tha day! New comers 5 bucks! Hopefully today i will get 9 bucks per hour!

Tha songs on tha player was mostly LADIES NIGHT OUT cd and all happening songs! So i danced in tha office and keep on singing! Man im just crazy! Cheryl said i was jovial and cute! :) Kembang aku sikit! hahahahs! and she said im preety matured in ma thinking! :)

Lunch was at LAU PA SAT! Tha had coffee and tha most delicious chocolate in ma office! How can i not munch to a chocolate in a day? Tell me? Its forever ma fave! Werk finishes at 4.30pm! Huney picked me up and we went to catch Family stone! Darn it sucks! N i was having a fever suddenly! Stupid sickness ! Go away!

Dee glad to hear ya bump into Hirin! Lucky u ;)

I gotta go! Shower and Get ready! Gd day for me today!

Lup U all!
MWaaaccKS!
Nur signing out!

2006-01-02T00:46:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR EVERYONE!hahahas! great! im updating ma blog like in dinosaur years! im feeling too lethargic thanks to KAL that it took me two days to heal! This is ma best new years ever! From Chijmes to Club Why NOt! In anothar words ma best BOOGIE NITE! Heres how it goes. . .

Mit Kal at 10pm and we head straight to CHIJMES! Believe me! City Hall was damm packed! Y didnt i countdown with my honey? Well blamed me for choosing a bad boy but hey dun tell me he hap to be 24 straight hours wit me? Coutdown is to spend most of ur time wit ya peeps if ya a party animal liked me! Being wit a bf,hmm cant boogie maself down enuf rite? Hes wit his ADELPHI CREW while me wit ma Drama PApa! Hahahs! Ok back to it! Onces we arrived, it seems dull at first cause it hadnt start tha heat yet but when TRUE COLOURS perform! Dammit! Tha eurasians n everyone get down to tha center n start dancing! From tha genre of rnb to blues and ballad! dance frm 10pm to 12am! In tha middle of performance theres a game to be played to won some vouchers! n i won a 10 bucks voucher! Bought maself an orange juice while Kal had his Long Island,Bacardi Breezer and a Shot! Once it hits 12.00am! We shouted! Hug Kal! Everyone wishes each othar and tha fireworks frm MArina lights tha coutdown up! Phew i was sweating! TRUE COLOURS GREAT BAND! Than i realised this guy been following me around.. n when i turn he winked and gip me an air kissed. . hmm. . what was dad about? but hell i aint interested and continue wit ma dance! What i liked bout Chijmes is that all tha people were sporting and not many malays. . Ooops! I hope i aint insulting any1 . . It was heart warming and im sincerely overwhelmed! Than i felt a tap on ma back, a gorgeous lady pointed to us and ask, " are u guys couple?" i replied " NO!" she replied " Great dance moves by both of u!"
aww! i just flashes ma best smile and wishes her happy new year!

Kal was feeling a bit drunk! I smoke n smoke as we walked. . He held ma hands as we explore almost all tha places! Damm he! He hold ma hands tightly . . hold on to ma handbag. . didnt allow me to let go and force me to sing wit him . . i was wearing high heels. . ( 4 glamour sake,y not?") imagine we walked frm City Hall to Tanjong Pagar? Ma legs was burning hot! Darn im aint lying!

Reach WHY NOT and we saw Joey at tha door!YESH DEE!THA JOEY U ONCE HAD CRUSH ON!told us cover charge $40.00! I was rolling ma eyes! I hap no cash! Than JOey looked at tha BOUNCER, He looked at me and Kal, always sees us there and stamp our hands! Man when we get in! Tha club was packed! Put ma bag on tha locker! N start ma dance move again! WEe Hees! No REst 4 Me riTE? Dance,Walked,Dance!
As i was dancin, i saw a familiar face dancing near tha pole bar! Whu is tat guy? Tha shades seems familiar. . shouted at KAls ears Thats Rahim!!!!!! Rite enuf! Its him! Hug him tightly!
Hes there wid IDE and BOb!

IDE was drunk! Hes been climbing up on tha Pole Bar! Man! I didnt get a Chance for that! I love dancing there! It gives u tha spot light! THan this guy came to me.. hug me and Wishes me happy new year! Hug and KIsses and we dance! Hes a great dancer!
3.30am, i get to dance near tha pool, danced wit Rahim! Man! I was feelings sooooo Hyper! I danced till no one cud stop me!
3.55am last song! Joey came to me and we danced to GASOLINA! Had a great time! Hes a great dancer too! We sort of grind. . did we? Hhahas!! It was a great Nite out!

Rahim said i loooked great and great danced move! U too Rahim except ya torn pants?

Im sure everyone had a great time!!! Lup u all! MwwaaaCCKs!

With LOve ,
PinKIes Sanoritas!

TO dee n Hirin: MIssed U LOTs n May Ya Blessed WIt GREat NEw YEar!

2006-01-01T03:21:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps! Ok. . aftar few smart message from few of my friends, i decided to start blogging again. . y must i stop blogging due to someone that knows ma address and felt a pierce tru her heart since its all true bout U?

I hadnt been good . . ma guardian angel whu stand by me all this while knows it very well! Thanks guys for being by my side. . .

Im aint talking to ma mum anymore. . . i seems like a tenant in tha house, people aint toking to me and doing their own business. . i will embrace this scenario in ma heart forever. Im going to live in independance. . . yesh! Finally i found maself a job! I work in an office. . wit ma own table
and ma own phone. . good pay. . but u know what? best of all. . i work for 6 hours! Mon-Fri! Office time! I dun hap to sweat n slog for life! They only need someone with fluent in English! Man am i lucky! It kinda pissed me off during ma job hunting when most of them needed Chinese and English spoken! I can speak chinese. . KANINABUEI PUA CI BAI! hows that? aint it captivating them?

I work as a manucurist for a day! Damm i love that job and ma boss love me but what i hate is that i have to sign a bond wit them! Thats when i decide and said a bold NO! Right now i work in an office wit a sporting boss! As crazy as me! Hahahas!!But one problem,I have no cash to eat! I have no financial security since i decided tha independance way . . but god will help me shine tru this difficulty . . . insyaallah!

2005-12-14T07:58:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps! Nuthang much to update just kinda had an ugly cronicle and scenario of ma relationship today. . . y? Haiz. . . i rathar not humiliate him! It just sucks . . . i seriously break down just now . . aint nuthang much to say. . im just freaking upset. . . i told dee short notes of tha incident and she said im being to easy . . . To me as long as my strength of love is strong. . i will perservere . . .

Ok what i do for tha day, just sit at ma freaking home entertaining maself wit tha net n enjoying msn company wit Dee. . . Ma mum bought for me OP towel! Tha pink one! Knowin ma colour!! She spent 100.00 and above to get that towel. . . Thanxx Mummy!

Now ma freaking Baby called me. . . hahahahs! JUst entertain him lah. . . hahahahs!

Till than everyone!! Lup u many many! Mwaaccks!!
Nur signing out!

Day wit shak!

2005-12-13T07:49:00.000-08:00

A big shout out to everyone of u!!! Gd mawnin!!! Guess wHues back?? back again! nur's back!
hahhas.. . ok enuf of that! Guy's i haven been this gay since days! Hahahs!!! Shak is just a dearie!! We had a heart to heart talking. . had jokes. . we are always crazy . . tha maniacs thats what some peeps called us. . . hahahs!! We are around Cineileisure taking tha escalaltor to level one aftar purchasing our movie tickets to catch SAW2.. i was taken aback by SHAK. . i was shocked when she pointed out to this gal whues beside tha escalator going down and said ." THATS THA SEC 1 BITCH OF THA SCHOOL"! oh gosh! it took some guts of her! Ok guys dun thang diff of SHAK. . she's sweet and adorable.. just that she's damm pissed wit that gal as she's tha caused of tha tragic relationship of her's to sink down tha drain. U know sometimes u cant run away from bitches rite?

Went to SHAW to get our MILKSHAKE and hang around giving each othar an endless laughter! Get nachos and head down to CINEILEISURE back for movies! Tha movie SAW2 was fantastic! Bettar than tha first one! If they won any GRAMMY AWARD its totally deserving! It gruelsome wit all those blood sheeding and cruel killing . . Its totally unbelievable! Shak and me head down to ngee ann city 7 eleven get ourself some drinks and grab any empty seats around.

I was telling Shak's a joke when suddenly this cute guy appear infront of me and stand to listen. I was surprised. He smiled and said HI and asked me follow him. I was kinda shocked! Than i gip him a blur looked and said ," HUH?''. He waved and smiled and said nvm.He for sure wanna know me wit all those reaction . but his friend is rushing him sumwhere. . Shak's start to freak out . . Shak's hate all these and warn me not to entertain him! WOW Shak, u for sure make me lose my chance of gettin to know that cute guy! hahahs! okie nur ! stop acting flirtatious! He and his group walked towards us and what did me and ma wanky lawlin SHAK did? Yesh we quickly run away! hahahas!!!! Aww. . if only im single . . i wun b missing any chance! Looks like a nice guy. . . those beach bummer kinda type! hehehs. . . .

U guys may b asking y aint me going out wit JAI? he claims that he's sick but god knows tha truth! I get his feeling. . he wanna go out wit me but in tha othar hand he dun wanna be tha cause of a middle person reason of ma relationship wrecking . . Jai ma guy undarstand and he dun mind. . nevar did i cheated on ma guy. . . dun worry. . it's okie Jai. . perhaps next time wit a group aite? If ya really sick. . . hap a gd rest ;)

Baby went to a bbq pit . . having a great time huney? Yeap he msg me and promised to called me latar at nite but up till now aint a call? expected me to call u always? Hmm. . sorry. . nop. . Lup u many many baby! mwwwaackkss!!!

Ma day end wit everlasting smile wit SHAK. . . even tha guy infront of our train seats laugh out loud at our jokes! SHAK i love u! U seriously ring a kukoo bell to ma day! We indeed had a blasting time fooling people!! What an ass!! Especially tha CREATE TALENT shit. . asking us to be model! What tha heck! Like we kena b4..asking us to do a portfolio that cost 300-400 bucks!

Everyone! Hap a nice day and stay PINK always!
Wit much lup . .
Dearest Nur/PInkies Sanoritas!
Many many flying kiss for u!

2005-12-12T20:09:00.000-08:00

Sorry for aint updating yesterday! Peeps! Whu catch Survivor yestarday? Oh man!!! Stephanie didnt won tha challenge or tha tittle as SURVIVOR! Its true she has backstap many othar players but thats how tha game goes! She lost badly last year and she didnt wan that to happen this year! Well. . anyway congrats to u DANNY. . u r a deserving one too. . . 1 million dollar? Y not give it to me? hahahs!! I will treat u to a scrumptious dinner at SWENSEN!

Catch tha SURVIVOR at ma aunt hum . . . than went to TAMPINESS MALL to pay ma outgoing bill. . yesh i went alone. . So unlikely me. . . bought MIsha eye highlighter!! weee hees!! Now ma eyes will look stunning. . . hehehehes. . . . .

Nuthang much could be done. . just that im fed up with life and ma love life. . .. i may b in love but im feeling single. . . yeap that should be great rite? Ma guy just called me every night. . like he's trying to court me.. but i guess. . it aint gonna werk out. . . i dun wish to hear that sorry werd if u aint willing to change.. . u c me in this condition but ya still in ya selfish attitude. . .

Now gonna shower n meet ma dawlin cuzzy SHAKILLah! mwwaacks!!! she brighten up ma day. . thanks dearie. .

lup u all!

wit lup..
nur ;)

2005-12-11T07:29:00.000-08:00

JUst ended watching IKHLAS on SURIA. i must give a riund of applause to tha creator of this charity show. Not because of tha monay they making but tha creativity they hap put in, in this show. They dun used any stunts or special extraodinary performance to make tha show happening but they joined tha idol force together! That attracts alot of audience and it has so far moved to a new target . . nevar did i expected that amount of monay though its still patetic compared to channle 8 charity show! KELVIN from projejct superstar sang tha song ONLY LOVE!Wonderfully sung! Infact he sounded just like tha original singer!! He's extraodianary in many ways. . . i simply adores his guts and courage! Siti NUr Haliza performs a remix of songs from her CD compillation! Aint an avid fan of her. . dun find her stunning in tha tittle of DIVA!
What did i do today? Sit at home. . surfin tha net. . modyfying ma bloggy. . create a closer bonding wit ma peeps via msn and played sum scrabble games!! hahahs!I won 2 games and lost wit one!

Time flew so fast. . . in 20 mins time its MONDAY! HUrray! n im meetin ma dearest aunt for lunch! Where are we eating? Hmm perhaps having our fave tom yum at TAMPINES MALL! Seriously peeps! U should gip it a try! Now im waiting for ma hubby to call. . if in 10 mins theres aint any call from im gonna slip . . Im not going to be tha nur i used to be. . end up getting hurt every frustating mistake he makes. . im not going to bothar in any little mistake hes making cause that wun get into his head. . . Sacrifices i made will turn to transparency. .
aNyway anyHuu. . LUp him to BITs! MwwaAAccks! I lUp U huNey!
N i LUp alL OF u TOO!
So LOng n Gd NIte!

Wit lUp,
NUr!

BLOggIn aGAin!

2005-12-10T21:23:00.000-08:00

Hey hey hey peeps! hows life been for u? My life seems unpredictable nowadays! im penniless and still aint getting a job! Due to some mis-communication i slip away a golden chance and failed to attenf that interview! gosh! im pissed wit maself! never am i jobless like this! Peeps, thanks for ur support. Ma bro didnt manage to get into tha GRAND FINAL. . . hes one of tha most goodlooking guy but ma mum always wanna follow her obit taste and there goes his chancE! tha christmas costume scores 20 POINTS! Adik. . . im crying in ma heart for u . . i go tha hard way. . fighting wit mama fore ur victory but in tha end i hap to gip in. Ma mum is self love egoistic and will nevar admit her mistake. Her exaggeration attitude is what i hated most. I'm only discussiing wit ma aunt and there she goes trying to find fault wit me. . . always like this! WELL AUNTY. . u aint feeling ma suffering . . . u aint know whats happening. . what u heard is ma momma story but aint mine. . i dun wanna hummiliate ma mum and that was y i wanna shut maself up . . Im aging. . sooner im 18! Ma mum eyes will only go WOW on ma monay! hahahahas!

Ma aunt will start lecturing me. I still remember that faithful Saturday. MA aunt lecture me not to be stingy wit ma cash. Ma mum before hand (b4 i get tha job) warned me of ha cash. . tha cash to gip her. When i said i hap many thangs to save for. . she just laugh. .. i mean how thick skin can u be asking for ma monay and i said i wud gip u 100-150 n i will gip u and ma dAD tha same amount! She said y must it be ma dad? MA reason is simple and its between maself. Ma dad works for tha family frm 7am-11pm. Ma heart cries for god-bleessed soul of ma dad. MA dad is a wonderfull guy. . . . ma mum just dun see it. . Ma guy has a low education level and family is his main priority. I know hes not at home to shower me wit love but deep in his heart he wishes . . .
I nid to get a job b4 ma daddy burfday . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
I wanna get his a levis pants. . ssshhhss. . . . .

OKie this TUESDAY im goin to catch SAW2 wit JAI! hahahas. . is it a date? NOp. . its just a fwen outing. . . Aaaarrgghh i dunno.. . i hap not been out wit ma fwens for long. . all seems to b werking . . . Not only tat! Im kinda tha NUR which im aint familiar wit. An avid shoppaholic. . . an avid MC CAFE fan! I miss tha ICED PASSION TEA and DOUBLE CHOC FRAPPE. . out wit tha gals. . enjoying ma bloody time! miss them!! Our multi-racial society outing! hahahs! Yeap we promote racial harmony! hahahahs! Goin out wit Jai seems to be a Golden egg laying beside me. . Y? hes so obsssed wit his Job. . spiining music for people n bosses . .without having time for himself! Hes a humourous person! Wonder what jokes im gonna hear on Tues! :D

OKie peeps. . . im kinda stuck wit some financial shit! MA SINGTEL bill! I hap to settle sooner or latar. . . haiz. . . where can i get monay? Stole a dog and sell it for monay! hahahas!!!!!!

Njoy ya day peeps! wit lup NUr!

2005-12-06T20:33:00.000-08:00

Hellos EverYone! Yeap im back again. . . Im sorry for aint updaiting 2 days ago. . tha reason is im busy finding for jobs and for ma bro little prince charming competition. Oh ma gosh! I had one of tha embarassing days of ma life. I was kinda pissed wit ma B. . I just dun know what othar resolution should i thang just to make thang bettar. . . . Im mean guys always thang saying sorry and pour in a sweet words or two everythang would be forgotten. Imagine it happening always. . wud that be forgiven?????? Seems ironic but i hap too. I was in a crucial phone call wit ma guy and leave ma hum to take tha train to ma aunt hum! I was feeling sick already! I put down tha phone wit ma guy on tha train feeling anguish . . . Tha speaker was alerting,'' NEXT STOP,TAMPINES''. . . Before i put ma last foot step out of tha door, a woman tap me, '' Xcuse me, ur zip!'' Oh ma gosh! No wonder tha fucking passenger in there kept on staring on me especially tha PUNDEK infront of me!

I nid a bloody job urgently! Tha agency just called me. . . sending ma application and will call me for interview soon!!

Went to Jurong Bird Park yesterday. . Ma bro get into tha bloody final and he have to attent tha press conference! Obviously tha ''PUKIT'' / ''MUnJEns" will get tha attention! It seems so unfair but yet predictable! JUst like Pride and Prejudice! We could compare and contrast situations but common sense said it's predictable! I was feeling damm lethargic! Imagine arriving there at 7.30am till 4.30pm. . . in tha scorching sun! Wow! Asshole right? Anyway bad lunch and bad management!

Now im wanna go shopping .. . . . alone!! wah suei man!! hahahahs!! okie . . . . nur gtg! Till then. . . Updating u soon! Chiao!

2005-12-01T04:45:00.000-08:00

Hello peeps. . . Hows life? Hope urs does fine! Im here . . accompanied by MTV alone in ma own aunty home! Yesh. . . she went to Manila for 5 days! How bored can i be these few 5 days? I was indulging maself to a tup of KINGS ice-cream when suddenly i frozen. Thoughts recalled in ma memories. . . Tha TV showed a Chinese show wit some Chinese Skool people and damm how much sec peeps of mine has to change? im beginning to miss ma old peeps! i wanna gip a shout out to DEE, FIRA and HIRIN! I wont forget all those unfaithful accident and happy moments when im wit u guys. . I started to get emotional. . . Yesh ME emotional? Haha-huhu . . . Tears flooded my eyes . . . I just misses teasing tha teacher's ... tha mischievious me and bubbly still here! BEDOK GREEN SECONDARY SCHOOL has lighten up ma tight times. . . Now i dun have peeps surrounding me, listening to ma crap. . attending me when im being cranky! And theres no KAL to gip me that rathar skeptical looks! N tha mood and memories soon recalled when i accidentally viewed a stranger blog n it played FRIENDS FOREVER by VITAMIN C! what tha heck rite? I missed ma drama peeps whu used to called me DIVA MAMA! hahahahas! MIssed u guys just as badly as i misses tha gals! Looking at tha wonderful results i had in sec skool. . i nevar wanna looked back and gip a big regret! Yesh! Theres mistakes that everyone made but being in a strict skool wit wo0nderful teacher's, IM OVERWHELMED! seriously, how many skools can u introduced to me, having supporting teacher's ,most are caring, having a united class, ONE FOR ALL,ALL FOR ONE? Not much. . . we knows everyone in skool, we had great laugh at our own principle.. i missed all that! Private skool is great! But having a true friendship,someone that appreciate u, tha respect i get in Secondary Skool, are UNCOMPARABLE!

Lookin tru friendster, all ma mates, they hap change! Just like me! Some seems to lost their soul to someone else. It seems like an exchanged, well guess yeah... Some grooms wonderfully! Example TIFFANY,OLIVIA,ALVIN,KAL,EIN,QAMARUL! Applause to u guys!! Keep on looking glamourous! 4 whoever i have mention U guys still looked great!

Ma relationship at last came back to its original state.. i dun c break up as tha main answer! I believed in forgive and forget. He gives me tha unexpected nite. . so beautifully.. playing tha song MY ALL, apologising, WE had tha most romantic ICE CREAM date, presented me with a necklace and A GIGANTIC WHINEY THA POOH BEAR! its original and its huge! It took me aback. . . he's not a romantic guy, keep on hesitatiing me to meet him, yesh, i bridge tha agreement... i shud meet him by CHristmas but since it all turns weell y not? Just that it seems like new back. . . As long as u can save these relationship, U treasured it more. No one knows our real problems to a break up.. i dun think thats necessary. Its my private life, n i dun wan to humiliate each othar... much more we promised to keep it private. Dun thang any of dirty shots or imagination in ya mind or fantasy now. . . just that i nevar cried that deep and much tears b4 and that will be my one last cry wit him. . I do love him. . . Yesh i do .. . he just needs time to change. . . hahahahs! enuf of these love story of mine! I hope i hap answered some of ur question for whuevar had saw us going out again ;)

DEE U PROMISED ME A DATE! I BLOODY HELL MISSED U! mmwwaacccks!! when will i see u??? MSG ME!

too all of u! Take care n hap a nice day ;)

LUp NUR!

2005-11-24T21:18:00.000-08:00

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glory!

2005-10-29T22:00:00.000-07:00

HeLLO peeps! man!JUst get hum aftar studying! today is ma gloriest day!! wanna know why? theres lots to b achieved. .. firstly. . . me and ma guy went out! he bought for me ma two way cake!! wee heez! thanks B! MWWaaacccks!! lup u many many!! hehehhes... n shop shop shop for his thangs!! get coffee bean white chocolate dream . . cookies . . muffins!! wow!! impressive!! i love this pillow. . written princess! ahahahs! ma hubby look at it and stared at me. . he knows im gonna lup it . . its super funky . . . n ma fave colour since a baby . . . PINK! hell yea!! but when he asked. . .u nak? just smiled n said nah. . dun wanna waste ya monay. . . dun kie lawlin . . hehehes. . in ma heart . . if only i could get it . . ii love it!! wanna save monay. . . speaking of monay . . theres lots to catch up . . no job anymore . . nevertheless. .. i dun know how to save ma kaching n now im stuck wit cash. . anyone cared to pay for ma bills?? hehehehes. .

went airport and dig in to ma books aftar meeting Baby . . y on earth whitney(DARL) choose that place to study? behind this st.patrick guys . . cant deny they are cute but what happen next. . . sucks. . . u see they was with this attention seeking bitch. . trying to grap their attention n was making noise n trying to show her identity n value. . . i was really pissed off. . . tha guys was trying to dig to their books to gain klnowledge and here she was making noise telling them stories which i believed seems rathar fairytale. . n irritating us. . trying to mock at us for no reason! gosh!! im agitated n in tha same time furious! me n darl went out for a fag . . . i leave ma books unattended n i forgotten to take ma gucci envy me transparent case which has ma ic student pass popular card n nets. . . we came back tha boys left a note asking to get to know DARL and it tha note was a phonenumber was scrambled like a code. . n it empasised TO THE GIRL WITH DAMM SHORT SKIRT! wow! looks like ya looking for love or the othar way round huh mister? Darl dun gip a shit n wanna dig on books back when tha slut start mocking at us. . . saying darl was shy. . his friend kenar rejectd and they are many bettar gals. . . kinda like he dun hap taste! fuck u bitch!! darl was shivering wit anger! she was really nervous! we went out for a fag again.. . this time i closed ma exercise book and put it away neatly. . . when we came back i saw a piece of paper lying around. . i mean on top of ma exercise book...it was ma literature exercises n it was in tha exercised book.. impossibel theres a strong wind to lift it up on top? rite? next thing i know ma wallet lost . . i was so devastated! aaarrrggh!! i was recalling . . while searching for it . . they werem laughing behind! y tha hell they want ma wallet for? i search high n low n below their table i saw 0.05cent coin. . i hap only coins in that wallet. . maklumlah org miskin. . 0.35cents.. n i was puzzled bout ma literature paper. . went out n figured it out. . i couldnt lost it somewhre. . . it must b that slut.. i hap to prove to make a scene at mc.. so i went to info counter n lodge a complain . . then in tha train darl n me confirmed its them . . its a trap to get number! we rummaged to tha note they gave us n darl solve the code. . . we message them n used ma technique. . we colded that slut with all out might n ask them to return ma wallet. . 5 mins aftar that msg tha info counter called n found ma wallet! woo hoos!! i found tha culprit! it felt like a C.I.D! amacam? got future? hehehs! darl was happy. . hug her n wish her i love her! hahahahahhas!!! went bck airport complaint to ma aunt whues working at raffles n took that sutff!! i was over-joyed!! ahahahahsss!!!!

study frm 12.00am to 6.30am! 98556024! this is tha culprtit no! do gip it a call! name DINESH! wee hees!! then he try calling n wanna tok to darl urgently regarding me. . . whats tha point? we bang that slut right on tha face. . .!! cheers to us tha UNBEATABLE CHICKS! ahahahas!! wanna play punk wit us!!

anothar glory! tha gal that i tutor scored A1 and A2 for all her subject! i was over-joyed! frm C5 to that!! wow!! due for me to believed myself in all that i hap . . . believing i could teach i can do it!! wee hees!! now waiting for ma psle student!! may she bring glory for me! hey guys next year im teaching permanent tuition! if u haf any primary students that in need of tutor or wanna improve tha results do gip me a call . . with ur recommendation i will give tha students 10 percent of tha fee im charging tha whole year!! do believe in me! hehehehs1 east area prefered!! n if they start on december anothar additional 10 percent discount on tha first month payment... advisable start on december for a better results. . i swear u . . u nid to hap tha essense first!

ma hubby bought tha loveliest sneakers i always wanted! im jealous! blueks! dun cyg u!! ;'(
nvm. . next time ma turn! mwwaacks! lup u! try calling u noww to wait for u bobok for me... then nevar pick up tha phone. . u kener kidnap eh? hehehs!

kie peeps! sorry for tha long blog. . . n sorry for ma bad english today . . it doesnt seems professional but i got to hurry. . 10.21am n wanna slip . . gotta wake up at 1.00pm. . then got literature! haf a nice day all! mwwaaccks! lup sama u all!

2005-10-27T02:02:00.000-07:00

HeY peeps! guess what? hahahs! im so over tha moon!! me and ma guy sort thangs out! gueess sometimes. . . god makes us human blinded by our selfish our own feelings that we totally forgotten about tha ones u love. . . this is a test! yesh! it does! how relieved was i . . was crying like an infant . . trying to signal ma mummy . . . i want milk!! tsk tsk.. nur nur. .. hahahas! we are on a verge on a break up? surprising aint it?? a perfect couple like us . . . having to end a problem to a solution which involves risk . . . aint thinking of othar consequenses . . . thank god! it was save! thanks to striptilla in singapore! hehehehs. . . .we both realise. . . it occur to us. . . how hard it may seems . . . for us to be parted . . . forevar. . we are just dependable to one anothar. . ma soul lies upon his body. . . his circulating ma world forevar. . . we both haf to face the cronicles n path that god had test upon us. . . we were arrange by tha cupid. . to fall in love n conquered this evil werld at a young age. . . we hap to persevere n put tha thoughts of marriage at tha corner of our mind though thats what we had always fantasies. . .ours isnt to be called love. . . ours is called destiny. . .
Peeps. . theres two types of love. . . what i see in most of ma peers right now. . . trying to act as if urs is perfect relationship . . trying to b acting mushy. . put up such a fake act whereelse ur forcing urself to tha so called-dreamland of urs which may not b achieved. . now thats "LOVE OF PLEASURE" or in ma own mother tongue " CINTA NAFSU". . .
tha pleasure may b blessed upon u right now. . . but hey god is tha unbeatable. . anythang may happen. . . u get what i mean? I looked tru n analysed. . . love doesnt envolves just romance but commitment. . . I haf a friend of mine. . . fighting all day long.. like cats n dogs wit her guy. . . but tha love that over-powering for him. . giving her countless of chance to herself aint giving up for him . . . she jolly well know herself for her ego n sensitivity. . but u know it takes two hands to clap? rite? her guy doesnt get tat principle to his blocked head. . blessed her relationship . . soon it wun make her suffer in tha prison of love. . .
Now im studying in one of Singapore glories. . u wana know where? CHANGI AIRPORT!
n its 2.10am rite now! going home at 6.00am sharp!! for tha sake of ma Os. . . i got to sacrifice. . a month! it aint a killer!! :)
So much of me wanna celebrate this pure month of ramadan n tha excitement of HARI RAYA. . . looks like it aint worht tha excitement. . .
No raya-raya wit ma guy. . . No raya raya wit peeps. . . will try ma best to squeeze some time for u!
All right then! back to books!! All tha best forn ur new day! GD MORNING to me! Hap a nice day to U!
wIth LOve,
NUr!
MwwAAcks!!

2005-10-24T22:24:00.000-07:00

Hey PeePs. . . time flew so fast am i hap not been blogging ever since a month ago? hhmms? am i right? yea i shud . . . life for me now rathar systematic actually. . . ma Os are coming and here i am enjoying every time of ma life surfing tha net, adoring tha movie theatre every passing week . . . . .
U guys may b pissed of hearing this but hey. . im studying. . at night. . . i guess its hard studying in tha day. . . with tha scorching sun . . . dropiing pearls on ma cheecks. . . hell no aint it?
Haiz im planning to pass three subjects n pass anothar perhaps next year or went straight in to Shatec but man. . . its hard . . . ma english gotta b at least b3!!! okie nur! stop ya sermon! ya just being cranky!
I dun undarstand y do u need science one of tha main subject to admit yaself to poly. . .
Its not as if any mastery subject that allows to get that kinda course of ya interest. . .
i aint a freak in science though i uses science on daily basis . . . those whum knows me hell know i hated science ... i mean an exaggeration in tha HATE!
NOw i got to smile n faked tru to enthusiasm saying , " I LOVE SCIENCE"
maths is a rathar interesting subject i must say!
I LOVE MATH!! ma literature had been pretty much on tha lose lately since im concentrating on ma MATH. . . drats!
NUR! its time to drill urself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
english in three weeks time!!!!
Ma hubby had not been contacting me for 2 days. . . since our fight. .
its tha first time. . . hes doing this.. .
im rathar worried. . .
how is he? Is he as pink as always or hes in danger?
Ma perseverance to not losing tha battle to man when it comes to parts n parcel of relationship negative issue makes me determine maself hes calling me soon. . but hell no . . SKinhead wud b choosen over me? i remembered that very well. . . still intact in memories. .
Whats gotten into u guys? Dun u see? how much hap that lady sacrifice for u n stop being selfish to your own needs. . . u love her. . all tha sweets words was showered to her but must ur ego get in tha way of ur wrong doings? im ashamed to say this guys. . but ur feelings n sensitivity are wae above us gals!
Yes i admitted . . . sometimes i may get pissed over some tiny whiny actions of urs but its us gals emotional wave tha swayed us to that!! Gosh!! we cant stop that. . even tha nerdy GUun type of woman hap feelings. .. we want to feel tha pampering which u guys shud shower to her!
U dun wanna call me FINE! i got to control maself n get on studying. . . u make me worried for no reason n this is aint u. . . u always call me back n assured me this wun happen again . . . or has some peeps of urs poison tha dense brain of urs to play a trick n see if i love u n seek forgiveness? how pain this heart of mine is beating n drift away in sadness u dun wanna know. . .But to keep this relationship strong. . . i will abide to this test god testing me on this relationship . . God wont test us if he thinks we cant take it . . arent im right? i dun flirt wit guys. . . they msg me. . . n i dun gip a shit. . . so many charming ones come in tha way . . but i rathar go for you cause ya tha jewel . . . beautiful on inside. . . If anyone knows ma guy where about or if hes seriously on danger do msg me. . . im afraid he gets into a fight. . . im infact intensely worried. . wild imagination swirling on ma mind!! aaarrrggh! i cant stand this trauma . . . stOp turmoiling me!! I LOVE U WHOLEHEARTEDLY. . . . this pain is killing me. . . I MISS U. . . yes i do . . . . dun put me in a dilemma. . .

wEnt out wit aunt n bukeing outside...
aftar that watch deuce bigolow! man its hillarious!! ma sickening laughter fills up tha whole theather!! hahahahahahs!! whuevar wanna watch it again! im always there to tag along!! hehehehes! now i wanna study n put up high hopes for his call . . . 10.37pm now n im counting tha minutes. . . i got to sort thangs out. . . this has made a failure in ma relationship for onces. . . n i dun wanna that to happen again . . nevar evar even if im married. . . ma guy is always tha one whum shud b respected by me. . . not tha othar way round. . . till then peeps!! nur signing off!!! Happy late 1 year 9 months to me!! WEe HEEs!! i aint rejoicing it. . . . .

2005-09-19T20:31:00.000-07:00

~~Here Tha PhoTo eDItEd By Me.. a DAy OuTInz wiTz KAl! TherEs MoRe To UpLOaD! sO HOld On KIeS?~~

COLLagE OF PICs...

2005-08-30T06:07:00.000-07:00

Mi 3 MonThz BAck afTAr BAtMAN PReVIEW!! waITIn 4 wHITneY MA NeXT VAiNPOT siSTER doIN HEr MAke-UP!

THis ONe wAs TAkeN FIRsT.... THeN THa SePHia.. I wAsnT KNowN bOuT THIs PICtURe Up TILL OUr nEXt MIT.. aINT He sumTHanG? BUt anYWaY HuneY.. i LUp THa PIC!!

HUneY TOOk THEse wItOUt MA PErMissIOn.. I wAs aDmIRIn MAseLf IN Ma cOMpaCt MIrROR! HE USEs THa sEPHia aFfeCT IN HIs CAmERa.... Gd JoB B!!

REceNTlY TAKeN In THa BUs!! BOREd....

THiZ PIC TakEN aFTAr skOOL wHIle I BUm INTo KAL! HAhHAs! TAke THa pICXIeS wITs HIs CAM!

WaITIN 4 Tha LAsT TRAIn!! LOOkIN TIREd n BOREd!!

TaKeN aFTar CLuB aT DOuBLe O!

2005-08-30T05:44:00.000-07:00

TRIED POSTING THIS 4 29/08/2005.. BUT FAILED SO NOW PEOPLE THIS IS 29/08/2005 POST!
LiVInz Inz a LiFe fuLL OF MEss Is wAt iM GOin TrU NOw....
THAnKs To Ma cusSy aZi 4 LendIN Mi a BOOk fuLL OF sECrET InGREdIenTZ 4 sTUdYin...
sErIoUsly i maSelf dUNno IF I Can Make It 4 Ma os..
THa PhOBIa Is TheRE... YEt IM NOT PUttIN anI efFoRt at AlL!!
GOsH1 wAt HAp I BIn doIN alL THeSE wHIle?
wHy i aM so BeIn AdaMAnt whEN IT cuMz to stUdY?
Y Y Y? y CAnT I?
Ma HEalTH Is aT sTake...
FamilIE PrOBs aRisES...
IF B Is NoT THEr 4 MI...
i dUNno wHERe LiFe Is HEadIn TOo....

IM OUtz OF THa MeSS OF TanGLe LOVE...
MI n MA GuY Haf no ProB..
InFAcT He AINt JealOus of THa GUYs THa wAnTs MI... n MI sMS-IN TheR...
HEs PaTienCE n eVEn PRAy 4 ThESe GUy HeaLTh WhuS In LUP wiT MI...
3 GUys wHU wanS MI..
i KCk THeM aWae wIT a HeaVy HEarT....
BUt ONe TAt i CAnT FOrgeT is JAI...
JAi wHerE-eVAr U R.. JusT DUn LosE cOnTAcT WIT Mi JUsT LIke TAt...
YA a DEeP dOWn TO EarTH GUY...
i NId To GEt THa InFO ON Ya HEAlTh..
Im woRRIed...
Its JUsT a CrUsH Tat cuD b FOrgOTTen...
BUT FWensHIP LAsT 4 eVAR...
anYwAe . . IF i BUmP InTO Ya IN anY shOw OR cLUB.. B sURe TO saE HI n sHArE sUM JOKes wIT MI...

NExT FamILy?
LiFez To crONIcle . . . . .
iM FaTEd TO LIVE LIke TheSE . . .
FAmIlY MemBErs HAtE MI...
whEEReNEVar i cOMPAREd THeM To Ma GUy FamIlY...
NOT IN a DiRecT MAnnER . . . . . . .
THeY THanG dIFF . . . .
Y m i aPPReCIaTEd BY FweN n HuBBY NOt FamIlY?
aLwaES FeLT a LUmP IN Ma THrOAt...
Is IT FaiR?
yEsh . lIfEs sEEMs UnFAiR... YEsh ITs TRUe....
n YEt i C THose wIT a HApPy FamILY.. BEsT MUmMy n DadDY wHUEs TRYIn To b UNDarsTAndIN n MakIn THa BesT in THeM...
YEt TheY neGlEct THa PaRENT n CarE MoRe 4 THOSe UNImPORTAnt PeOPle wHuEs seT TO RuiN ThEIr LiFE...

I OnlY wiSh 4 a HAppY FAmiLY OR b LOVEd BY TheM.. IS IT TOO MCH THAT I AM ASKIN 4?

Y MusT U B soO sAcaRsTIc TOwaRds Mi whEn iM ToKIn To MA Guy..
wHEn i WAs cRyIN BadlY saYInz , " dun thang u haf a guy u can neglect family... dun thang that person can undarsatnd u fully... if he leaves u.. im tha one u hate... ur guy mom n younglings bettar than urs! R WE SO BAD?" gosh how i wish i can answe back...

Ma sELf CEnTErEd,eGOisTIc BroTHar OF MINe... asKed MI To GO TO HeLL n gO n diE . . . .
It MAY sEEms IroNic . . .
He saYs It sOO LOUd...
No MUmBLiNg BUT auDiBLe!!
HOw HuRt I FELt .. NOBodY KNowS...
WhY HAs He CHanGE? i LoVe Ma Bro sOO MuCh TAT i nEVAr BLuRT HIs secREts TO MA MUm...
TAt he DrINKs n stUFF..
THeSe HEarT OF MIne . . . Is Bein TOO LeNien
THAnks To Ma B... Ma GUy.. 4 BeiN THER...
wHatEVAr MA MUm saYs tO U..
dUn TakE It tO HeaRT...

wHAtEVAr Ma MUm saYs BOUt Mi TO MA AUnT....
m senSiTiVe n aLL IT demORAlISeD B...
i THanG IT waS TRue...
sO i BeLIeved...
NEVar wAs m sO DemORAlIsed In chARacTer BY PeOPLe But MA MUm...
sHEs sO GooD IN TelLin n TwIsTIn sTOry..
TAt i HAp NO saY...
NoW PeOPLe HAd FEedBAcK MI
wHU i Am aCTUAllY..
whICh woMen NOT sensITIve?
THa xtREme sensITiVe Is MA MUm...
GUYs dUn TAKe THis As a JOke..
BUt THa 1 THAt KNow Mi IN aN OuT Is MA FweN n MA GUY...
M NoT PLasTIc...
BUt MA MUm...
ProVOKes MI..
n i HAtE beIN ProVOke..
She HAtE Mi sOO MuCH??
Tats HeR proB...
MA Bro wAn Mi TO dIE...
i wiSh IT HAppeN sOOneR INsTEAd OF MI sUFfErIN...

soRry To BRAg LOaDs...
aHAhhs!!
NiTEs PeOPle..
TILl heRE NUr...
MWWAaaCCKs!!!

2005-06-02T07:30:00.000-07:00

mI B4 KeNdUrIZ!!! NuTHAnGz TO dO>.. HeheHEhehz!!

2005-05-21T06:29:00.000-07:00

i HAteZ NA TEeThz.. THiz IZ TAkeNz ONz 20 OFz MAyz 2005! aFTArz MA sTArz WARz MOVIez! ;)

2005-05-21T06:26:00.000-07:00

THIz MAYz b a BItz BLUrz BUtz LOOkz aTZ Ma BRo n MI.. PeOPLez MAyz MizTAkeZ wI r a COUPLeZ! JEEz!

2005-05-21T06:24:00.000-07:00

MI JUzTZ aRIvEz ... POsINz THa sCEneRYz OFz THa POOlz!! HehEHeZ!

2005-05-21T06:23:00.000-07:00

MI n MA BRo.. 1sT PICz TAkeNZ aTZ THa POOLz... i HAteZ MA Facez BUtz i GUeZz Itz wAz OKIeZ... HAndsUMz RITez MA BRO?

2005-05-11T01:09:00.000-07:00

Your Birthdate: June 3

Being born on the 3rd day of the month is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.
The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.
There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude.

You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.
Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.
You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.

You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.
You are affectionate and loving, but sometimes too sensitive.
You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

<What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2005-05-06T22:16:00.000-07:00

HAdz a TIFfz wItz MA HUneYZ! i'MZ soRRyz dAwLInz 4 bEInz INseNsITiVEz To YA FILInz.. HAIz y MuzTZ i b THA BiTChz heRez? i HATe ITz!! i Amz MIssINz HIMz BAdlYz NowZ... JUzTZ waiTInz 4 HIMz To bIPz mI n i REAllyz REAllyz waNNAz apOlOGIseZ! wILlz shOwERz HImz wiTz KIssEz! MWWaaCKz mWWAaaCCKz MwwAAccKkz! Hez aLsO aTz FAUlTz BUTz i dUnz HApz To b sO MuChz InsensITiVez To HIz FIlINgz! aaaRRRRggHz! i HAtez U NURz! i HAtez U! i HAtEz U! i HATeZ U! hEz sO Gdz TO MI .... OUcHz HOwZ CAnz i REPAyz HIm?? dAwLInz i Amz TrULyz soRRyz... FOrGIvez Mi KIeZ cYGz? i REALiseZ HowZ DIPz YA LUpz 4 Mi n i wUnz leTz U GO... ProMisedZ! *HUGz* *HUgz* HUneYZ sHALlz wI CAtChz KINgdOOmz OFz heAveNZ? :D

-pInKIez SanOrITAz -

2005-05-06T14:30:00.000-07:00

HMMz... wOKiez leTz sEEz ... OKiez! i HAPz To adMITz i Amz a eUrOPe FREaKZ! i AlwaEZ waNTedZ tO toUrz THA wHOLez eUrOPez BUTz Itz JuZTz $$ PrOBLemz! n EvERsINce i BroUGHtz UPz eUrOPez Az MA GetAWAyz n MA DReaMz HOlIDAyz... MAnYz PeEPz trYINz To COpyz Mi sO i Amz CHAgInz tO BOra BORA IsLAnDz? evER HEArDz Ofz ITz?

BOra BoRA IslAndz Iz JuzTz RIGHtz FOrz ROManCEz. THIz IzLAnDz Iz FULlz OFz MIzTErIEz .. ITz maGICAlz PReSENCez Iz NOtz sO UNaTTAiNABleZ! iTz LoCAtEdz aTz TAhITi.. aROuNdz afRICA ThERez! aHAHAHz!! i aLwaYZ WaNNAz VisiTz THa KIDz n SAfarI!! Itz sURez a MemORIAlz 1 n BezTz Ofz ALLz.. i NO NIdz To BRINgz HUMz LOTsa sOurVENiERz! ThEREz NuTHAnGz To sHOpz!

I aMZ a BEAchz PErsOnz.. i LUPz Tha BEAcHeZ ... BUtz TOo BAdz sINGapORez HAz sUCHz a PATHeTICz BEAcHz wHiCHz ToURIsTZ wILlz LAuGHz aTz! i hApz VisiTEdz FEwz BEAcHeZ INz DiFFz IsLAndz .. n I Amz TOTaLLYz aMAzeDz .. i ONLyz sCuBA DiVEdz BUtz NevARz DIVE CAuSez i dUnz HApz a DiVINz LEssONz! MAybz NEXtz YEArz i AMz TAKINz THa DiVINz lesSONz... i wILlz b sOO sElFIsHz waNTInz EuROPez 27 DAyz ToUrz 4 MA DREAmz VACaTIOnz wiFoUtz THINkINz Ma HUneYZ PoCkeTz! Ifz i sTRUCkz RiChz .. wELLz i wILLz Go 4 bOThz!! aINtz TAtz aMAzInz? n MA wEDdInz i wANNaz dO Itz aTz THa BEacHz! IFz ITz aLLOwEDz!
aHAHAHhz!! ThOUGHz Itz sTILlz A LOngz waYz To GO bUtz i KNowz Hez Tha ONez..
THa FIlInz iz sOO dIFfz...

sCrOLlz TRU Tha PiCz! CLiCkz ONz Itz To eNLArGez ITz .. n DAwLInz IFz Ya ReadInz THiz .. r U aGREEInz To Itz? i MeAnz THiz PLACez?

2005-05-06T00:32:00.000-07:00

MI INz ma LAbz... i aMz a sCIentISTz!! a CHemIsTZ! HehEHez! :p

2005-05-05T23:10:00.000-07:00

Ma HOTElz LOunGez! aWWz!! HUneYZ i CANtz wAitz 4 THIz!! Itz sO pErFECTzlYz ROManTIcz! MA eUrOpeZ TOurz wILlz b LATarz! i GUEzz THA BEAcHEz ReaLLYz RULeZ OUrz LiFez!!

2005-05-05T23:08:00.000-07:00

THa wHOleZ MApz Ofz BORa BORa IsLANDz!

2005-05-05T23:07:00.000-07:00

LOoKz aTz Tha wATERz! IMAgInINz Mi n MA HUneYZ sCUBa DIVInz n EnJOyINz THa MArInez LIFez!

2005-05-05T23:06:00.000-07:00

sUnTAnnINz n nJOyInz THa sUNz!!

2005-05-05T23:05:00.000-07:00

TImeZ 4 BREAkFAsTZ DAwLINz! OooPz! i MeANz HUbByz! :)

2005-05-05T23:03:00.000-07:00

MI n MA HUneYZ .. FEeLInz THa ROManTICz amBIenCeZ .. aWWz!!

2005-05-05T23:02:00.000-07:00

aWWz sOO cUTez! i wANNaz TOUChz THa TUrTLez!

2005-05-05T23:00:00.000-07:00

THa vIEwz FRmz THa TOPz Ofz Ma HOneYZ MOOnz VAcAtIONz ...

2005-05-03T23:24:00.000-07:00

i CANTz sLIPz! sErIUzlYz.. i CANtz sLIpz! i MIzz MA HUneYZ sOOooo BAdlYz!! IN THA mAwNINz He wOKez MI UPz... " Bi I HApz FeVERz Arz BI.. iTZ HIGhz... 38.8 cElcIUz.. i'Mz NoTz CUMINz TO sKOOlz TaUZ DAwLInz.." aTZ FIRz i THoUGHTz TAtz wAz a NORMAlz FeVERz wHIChz USEDz TO GEtz n wILLz sOONz bE OKIez THa NeXTz MAwNINz... CAtcHINz UPz wITHz HImz INz THA MaWNInz aZ i DEcIDEdz TO GO MA aFTArzNOoNZ cLAzZ..

aFTArz CHATtINz UPz TILlz 10 aMZ.. HEz BInz cOMPLaININz heZ cOldz n He Iz ShiVErINz.. He wAz sHIveRINz.. i sTArtEDz To aCTz lIKez NuTHAnGz HAppeNZ BUTz trUTHz IZ i PANICKED n sCAredz.. i"Mz NOTz PAraNoIdz BUtz he sOUnDEDz sErIUz ... BUTz I meAnz i KInda FuCkedZ UpZ @ TAtz PoINtz OFz TIMeZ CAuSEdz He KIPz HIMseLFZ MUmz... PLz.. duN dO TAtz... IFz u wAnNAz slIPz n REsTZ ... TELlz Mi.. i'm wiLLINz To Letz U dO ITz.. aLlz THA BEzTz 4 YA HEAlthz.. THeNz He AskeDZ Mi To waiTZ n TOKz To HIz mUmmYz... suDdEnlYz ....

"HeLLOz... NUrz eHZ? DIERz sAkItz LAhz.. He NIdz A Restz.. He CANtz TOKz CAusEDz BiBIrz DIErz PeCAHz.. CaLlz diERz LATERz KIez? "
"OKIez .. TErIMa KAsiHz .. BYe"

JUzTz THa BLooDYz senTENCez MAkeZ mI NErVOUz.. BUtz iT wAz GREaTz ThOUGhz @ LeAsTz i tOKz To HIz MUmmYz.. TheNZ He BIPz Mi BAckz... i WAz IrrITAtEdz CAuSEDz i wAz cOOkInz aTz TATz POiNtz OFz TIMeZ n i gOTTAz WAtcHz THa FIRez...
He sEEmz PIssEDz witz HIz MuMMyz n TOlDz Mi NOTz To GEtz UPseTz.. i sAidz sUmz HArSHz wERdz REGardINz Hiz sILenCEz... i FeLTz BADz buTz i wAz FrUzTAtEDz UpONz MAnYz sTUFfz... i sAidz LUPz U TOoz... n PUtz dOwNz THa PHoNEz CAusEdz i GOTTAz RUsHZ! RUsHz TO MA HoTz BUrNInz FOOdz.. cYGz .. IFz REadINz THiz .. i'mz TerRIBLYz sORRyz IFz i HuRTz U.... sErIuzlYz.. BUtz u r sICkz... u REalLYz NIdz a REzTZ.. IFz I dIdz NOtz dO THiz U wILlz LeAdz ONz n ONz...

weNtz TO skOOlz wiFoUtz Ma HUNeYZ seNdINz Mi whICHz i FElTz aNz emPTINeZz... i MeANz i MizZ HIMz evErYz seCONdz... woRRIEdz 4 HImz n PRAyz TO GoDz Onz Tha wAYz ... TO BLeSSEdz HIMz wiTz Gdz heAltHz sOOnz..

aFTArz sKOOlz.. MItz ma MUMMyz To THa HOzpITaLz.... Ma GREatz GRAndMoTHaRZ whICHz Iz ONz MA PAtERNAlz sIDEz wAz sICkz ... IMagINez sHEz 94 YEArz OLdz! sHez sTILlz HealTHyz .. shE sMIlez.. n sTILlz GOtz Tha sTReNGHTz TO TOKz... aLlz Ofz TheMz sEEmz tO b shOCKez LOoKInz @ Mi.. THeYZ sAyz i LOzTZ wEiGHtz BLA BLa BLA.. TheYZ dUNz eVEnz KNowz MA aGEz n i wAz LIkez THA cenTERz Ofz Tha cROwdZ.. BUtz i MANAgeDz To MInGLez aRoUNdz... Itz enDEdz UPz fUnz n exCiTInz.. hAIz.. evErYOnez sUsPeCtz Mi a Bfz.. THeYZ sAyz HOwz CANz Ma FAcEz ThERez No BFz .. sHItz.. whErz CAnz i coVErz Itz? TheNZ i KIpz ONz THInKInz Ofz MA HUneYz ... HeZ BINz asLIpz sINCEz 11.30amZ To 6.30Pmz.. Iz He AwAkez? BUtz i dUnz wAnnaz BIpz HIMz CAuSez i JOllYz welLz KNowZ HeZ asLIPz siNceZ he dIdz NOtz BIPz Mi.. THa MoMeNTz he OPeNz Hiz EYez.. hE wILlz BIPz MI... TAtz 4 suREz ......aGAINz i pRAyz 4 Hiz HeAlThz..

aFTArz VIstINz wenTz TO saKURa 4 diNNeRz .. MA MUmmYz wAnnaZ HAPz dINNerZ.. ChaTTedZ TO MA MUmmYz BOuTz Ma DAwLInz Onz Ma fUTuREz .. MaRRiagEz bLA BLa... i FELtz OPeNz... i FeLtz Tha BOnDz THERz NOwZ... aS i wAz EAtInz DInnERz i wAz sTRezz .. n aFRAidz ++ wORrIEdz HAz MA HUnEyz woKeNZ UPz? i bIPz HIMz he dIdZ nOtz PIcKedZ Upz THa PHOnez... AfTArz coUnTleZz OFz CAllz 1/2 aNz HOuRz CAllz... MAnagEz To GETz HImz 2 hRz LATArz .. sErIUz TAlKInz i wAz sCAredz... Iz He INz THa HOzpITalz? y aINtz he PIcKInz Itz UPz? i wAz ONz a VerGe tO CRyz ... iTz Ma Firz TYMez BIPPInz suM1 4 sOO MAnYz TiMez.. CYGz.... i LUPz Ya LoTZ ..

whEnz He PICkedZ THa PHoneZ UPz.. i wAz so ReLIEVEdz .. i wAz saYInz To MaselFz IFz He dUNz PICkz Tha PHOneZ UPz.. i wiLLz caLz HIz bRO.. Hiz TOnez OFz VOiCEz sEeMz REaLLyz siCkz ... i pITiEDz HImz ... i AsKz HImz, " Bi wANnaz slIPz aGAinz cYGz?" " yes" " DIDz U EAtz aLlz YA meDiCIneZ n HaPz U c Tha dOCTOrz?" " NO need lah.. tadi my dad dah urut i.... " " NO.. U gOTTaz sEE THa doC Bi.. THIz Iz sErIUz DAwLINz" " tengok dulu.. kalau tak baik i ambik mc besok n see the doctor k cyg?" " ProMiSed?" " Promised" " K laHZ BI u Go n slIp n HAFz a Gdz REzTz .. NiTez DAwLInz" " U too..betul u tak marah?" " YEsHz" " i just cant talk.... i am too sick" " I unDARsTAndz" " lups u soo much baby" " LUpz U tOoz" " BYez" "Bye" ( I MIzz HIz KIsseZ ... HIz HUGz ... HIz cHHeekYNeZz n HIz MAnJa VOiCeZ!)

He UsEDz Upz aLlz HIz VOiCEz n He TAlkz To Mi sOO GenTLyz n suAVElYz ... ThOuGhz I HURtz HIMz INz THa NOoNz.... HOwz MUzTZ i DEsCRIBedZ MA FiLInz 4 HImz? MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMWWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaccccccccccccccccccKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKkkkkkkzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

NIwaEZ i BOuGHz a BLushErz!! wEE hEEz! MUmMYz BOuGHtz ITz! 13.50!

CYgz i MizZ YA sOO MUCHz ... dO GETz weLlz sOONz ... lUPz Ya LOTz ...

n NOTz To FoRGEtz MA Fwenz n aLLz.. i LUPz U GUyz TOoz!! MWaCkz!

-PInKiez sAnORItaz-

2005-05-02T22:00:00.000-07:00

HMMz... CAnTz TAlKz MuChz .. MA FAcEZ DAMmz sLEePYz.. wENtz To THA beAChz HAdz a GREatz TImeZ .. MIzZ MA HuNeYZ sOo MuChz!! MMwwwAAacccKKz!

-PInKIeZ sAnORiTAz-

2005-05-02T06:52:00.000-07:00

THIz Iz THa ORIGiNAlz PiECEz .. i'Mz so sTUPIdz To COLlaGez THaTZ ThINGyz!

2005-05-02T06:51:00.000-07:00

sErIuzLYz GOTz NuTHanGz TO dO! HMMz.. THiz iz wATz i DRawZ dUrINz ma n LevELz aRTz EXAMZ... Itz ONz a BrUtaLZ MaNZ... n ITz DEsCRIBz wiTz ThOUSaNdZ wERDz!

2005-05-02T06:42:00.000-07:00

Tha swITz INNoceNcez MI... HMMz.. NOwZ i LOOkz LIkeZ aNz InnOCeNCez LAdIez? dONTz I? ;)

2005-05-02T06:35:00.000-07:00

IMMiTAtINz a NErDyz INz MA EXz sKOOlz.. BGss! sHez LIkeZ To COmPEtez Mi INz DanCEz!GUEzz wHU! i'Mz wEarINz MA UniFORMz INz MA ROOmz! BAckz To skOOlz NUrz! CHIAkz! :p

2005-05-02T06:26:00.000-07:00

Mi IMmiTAtInz sUMz 1 EYEz .. HeHeHez... HMMz...JuzTZ CAmeZ BCkZ fRMz THA BEaCHz ..n sTILlz GOtz THA mOOdz To TAkeZ PiCTuRez .. BlOoDYz VAINz POTz! TIEz UPz MA Hairz.. dUNz i LOOkz eXAcTlYz LIkeZ TAtz POlICez wOManz?

2005-04-30T21:00:00.000-07:00

"U R NOtz aLLowZ To PLAyz BALLz UPz TiLLz U IMpROVez YA GRAdE!" COaCHz CArTERz SAiDz! YUPz! BInGO! cOAcHZ CArTErz aNZ INsPiRAtIOnaLZ sTORYz wHiChZ aLlz THA BAsKEtBAllz LoVErz MUzTZ wAtCHz!INFactz PeOPLez wHUM LUPz BaskEtBaLLz sHUdz wAtChz.. Itz HOwZ DiGNiTYz sTAndz wITHINz eAchz OTHArz .. CAtCHZ Itz WItz wHITneYZ DAwLInz! aHAhahz! i aMZ woNDErINz.. THIz FUcKInz MOVIez BUFFz .. FOrz 2 weEKZ she dIDNtz CAtChz ANi mOVIez dUE tO sUMz REAsONz!

i GUEezz I MIzz MA DEArIEz N Hiz PamPERInz NOwZ... i MIzZ HImz LOtz .. BUTz y MUZtz i B COldz To HIMz? i DUnz UNDArsTAndz Y.. i GUezz I HApz To TEAcHz HImz a LEssONz.. n Ohz YEAz CHOcOLAtez RUMBA 4 SALez! i MEAnz FREez TezTINz Ofz ChoCOLATez RumBa n OHz My! Itz TAsTez sOoo GOOdz! i aMZ sTILlz PLAnnINz Ma DEarIez BuRPzDAeZ ceLeBRAtIONz .. HMMmz.. wHAtz CANz i DO? HMMz... I waNNaz GO sTaRSHOOt n TaKeZ a cOuPLez PHoToz wiTz HImz! OUChz! i JuzTZ CAnTz wAItz 4 HIz BuRPzDAez BUtz whERez wI r GOInz IZ a HUShz HUsHZ! hehheHeHez.. wAnNaz GIPz HIMz a sUrpRIsEDz ... HEHeHez.. HIz BuRPdaEz n MI iz sOOo clOSEz! 1 wEEkz BuRpzDAez? AHAhhaz..

NOwZ HIz HAVINz Inz PerFOrmANceZ INz wEddINz ... I MizZ U CYGz .. sORRyz ... TrUsTz Mi...

i LUPz aLlz Ofz U... EZpECIAlLyz MA HUneYZ!!
MwwWWAAaccccKKKz!

PInKIez sANoRITaz OUTz!

2005-04-28T09:28:00.000-07:00

HEYz PeEpz! MAwnINz MAwNINz.... HMMmz... HOwZ Ya DAyz 2DAyz? GeTTInz Onz GREAtz? I HOpeZ sO! GUeZz wATz HAppeNz YezTaRDAyz NITez? MA HUneYZ sUDdeNLYZ BIPz MI aTz 9PMz.. whIChz he wUNz evARz dO CAuSEz Itz ONz Hiz TAkRAwZ TRAININz ... He AsKEdz Mi IFz i HAdz LeAvez HImZ a VOiCEz MeSsAGez? i SAidZ No.. CAusEZ Allz i KNowZ i HAPz GiVEnZ HIMz a TExTz MsGZ " I MIss U :(" wHiCHz Iz TrUez ... HE SAiDz INz THa VoiCez MsGz THiz GALz soUnDEdz LIkez Mi n EVeNz THa HUm NUmz IZ LIkeZ MINeZ .. THA GAlz wAz sAyINz " Kalau u tak kol mi in half n hour , dun bother to call. i will call you in 2 days time" ...... THIz TImeZ ITz GETTInz Onz ma NErVez .. MA HuBByz sAyz aFTArz he LIsTENz TO TAtz VOiCEz msGZ he PAnIckEDz n stRAiGHTz awAyz BIpz Mi .. THinKINz TAtz i'Mz fRUsTAtEdz wItz HIMz n wAtz He dO wRONgz... MA GosHz! i wAz sHOckeDZ bUtz i wILz NeVArz lEAvEz a VoiCeMAllz INz TAtz KInDA ToneZ n INz THAtz KInda MAnneRZ .. wAtz 4 i MIss HIMz .. KNowInz HIz dOINz Hiz TaKRAwz ..n sUMz BLooDYz IdIOtz Do ITz? OKIeZ u GUYz MAyz THanGz i'Mz OVERz REAcTINz BUtz THiz Iz THA BEZtz PARTz ...

wiThINz THiz MOnTHz .. Ma LAwlINz BINz GeTTInz caLLz FRmz GAlz CAllInz saYINz wRONgz NUmBERz n aSkInz 4 dIfFz GUYz EAcHz TImeZ n Itz HAppeNZ LIkeZ 1 Or 2 a wEeKz ...
OHz cUMz ONz .. wrONgz NUmz DOesNTz alwaEz cUmz BYz ... HOwZ LUcKyz CAnz He BE?
MozTz pROAbaBlYz ITz HIz exZ Gfz .. IFz Itz HeRz.. shOOosHz! sHOOsHz! UNvirGInz slUtz .. cheAPz wOManZ... NOwz TAtz DescRIbedZ HeRz CHAraCTErz...
BUtz Ifz shE waNNAz MA huneYZ BAckz .. i wUNz FiGHtz BAcKz .. MA HUneYz MAkeZ THa deCisIOnz... i JUZtz GoTTAz aBiDeZ Itz .... i LUPz HIMz sO mUChz ......

CAtCHz HIMz UPz aTz NiTez ... wE VirTUalLYz HUGz eAChz OTHArz aTz NITez ... n He TOldZ Mi.. HeZ NOtz CRAzYz YeTz .... U KNowZ tHOuGHz Itz a VIrtUAlz HUgz Itz seEmz REalz.. CAuseZ u JuZtz GoTTAz IMAGIneZ Itz ... he TOldZ Mi He JUzTZ CAntz aFFoRDz To leAVEz Mi CAUseZ He HAdZ GOneZ TrUz aLOtz .... sO DOeZ wE ... LOTSa TeZTz cUMz alONgz ... wE r seRIuz .. PAREntz KNowINz ... evEnz OUrz CUzzYZ n aUNTieZ .. CAuseZ wE CHAnGEz EAcHz OTHarz .... 4 THa BeTTaRZ .. wE r JUzTz sIMplYz UniqUEz ... ThOUGhZ wE KNewZ EAcHz OTHArz FOrz 4 YEArz 2 MONTHz 5 DAyz ... n INz a RElaTIOnshIPz 1 YEarz 2 MONTHz 5 DAyz ....ITz REmaINz FREsHz ... aS Ifz wE r JUZtz a FEwz MONThz OLdZ RElaTIONsHIPz... He MeANtz alOTz ... i CANtz LETz Go THiz RELaTIonshiPz .. Itz a PAINz 4 Mi To LeTZ Go...

whUEz GoNNaz LaUGhz TO Ma sILlyz n stUPIdz MIsTAkez wICHz i MAkez evERYDAez?
wHUez GONnaZ wAtCHz CArTOOnz .. PLAy THa PLaygRoUNdz ... LOokz aTz ToYz ... PLayZ THa ArcaDEz wITz MI?
wHUez GOnnaZ MAkeZ mi LAUGHz?
whU CAnz ToLerATeZ MA cHIldIzneZz n CRApz?
wHUeZ GONNaz sINGz To Mi tO slIPz evERYDayz?
wHUez GoNNAz HUgz,KIzz MA FoREheaDZ n wIPeZ MA TEArz?
aNdz THA LisTZ GoeZ oNz... n ONz ... n ONz ...
He PAmPERz Mi.. i lUPz TAtz ..
BUtz CAnz aNy GUYz DoeZ TAtz?
HeLLz No..
i DUNz THaNGz sO...

HAIz ITz TRUez wAtz MA sIs HIRInz saYz .. dUNz LETz TAtz ReKInDlez Inz Ma MINDz .. aITez i HEeDz TATz!

i lUPz U DAwlINz ... i dUnz CArEz BOUtz YA LOoKz ... U HApz TOUChz MA HEArtz ...

n PeEpz.. wiLLz UPdaTez MA DAyz 2NITeZ....
n IFz U r REadINz MA BLoGGieZ PLs TAgz Itz! THAnKz KIeU!
i LUPz U!! MMmwwwAaaaCCCKkkz!!

HUneYZ i wUNz LeaVez U .. No MATTArz HOwZ HArdz THA CHAlleNGEz Iz .. i wILLz Be BYz Urz sIDez ..
i sWEArz .. TRusTZ Mi...

-PInKIeZ sAnorITAz-

2005-04-27T19:17:00.000-07:00

TAtz MI GETTInz REAdUz TO schOOLz! I HAvEnz cOMbz MA HAiRZ aS MA HAIrz sEEmz WETz!! NAkz sTEpz VOuGE Je! HehHehhehHEhez!!

2005-04-27T14:25:00.000-07:00

HEYz PEePz! wHAtz UPz! HMMmz.. FirzTLYz i'mZ kinda WaNNAz aPOlOGiseZ 4 NOtz UPDAtInz MA bloGGiez 4 a wEEkz i GUeZZ... Itz JuzTz BECAusEz i'mz BusYZ n i'Mz RunNINz ERRanDZ!! heLLz YEAhz! sO MuChz To dO! wELlz i JuZTz CAmEz BAcKz FRMz sChOOlz ... Itz TIRINz i GUeZz BUtz OHz wELlz GONnaZ Go 4 THa saKEz oFz O leVELz , MA LAwLInz n MA MummYz ... GOsHZ! TAtz a SpAnKz Inz MA FAcEz wHeneVERz i THAnGz OFz O LevELz... i FEltz sO nERvOUs n sCAredz ... i dIdNtz KnowZ Ifz i wEREz aBLeZ TO maKez Itz ORz NOtz .. ITz aINtz EAsYz ...

i lUPz MA HUneYZ sO sO MUChz! MwwAAcccKKz! HEz GeTTINz swItTERz n swIttErz eAcHZ DAyz n wE LEArNZ TO cOMprOmIsEZ! i JuzTZ lUpz ITz whEnEvERz ThERez a HotTIez sMooTcHIez KIzzIEZ FRmz HImz.. kWanGz kWanGz KwaNgz .. alLz i CAnz SAyz MA HUneYZ TUrnINz 18 sOOnz... HMMz .. wAtz sHUdz i BUyz? KInKi? NAhz... wHAtz dO u wAntz HUNeYZ? i'Mz sO COnfusEDz ... i dIDNtz KnowZ WaTz To GETz 4 YA! i HAPz FEwz THAngz Inz MA MiNdz .. BuTz OuCHz!! sUMz r JUzTZ BUdGEtz cONsTRAinz! HehhehheHEHz... BUtz i'mz sTILlz sETtINz Upz a PLaNZ oNz YA BuRpZdaEZ Orz wE JoiNz OUrz BuRPzDAez CEleBRAtIOnz ToGEtHErz ... whICHz Do U THangz ITz BEtTARz HUNeYZ?

NOwZ i wAnnAZ dO MA sTuDYz TIme-TAbleZ ... HAIz... i GUezZ i cUdz OnLYz CAtChz MA HUneYZ UPz @ NiTez nOtz MoREz THanz THAtz .. i'Mz GoNNAz UPdatez HImz.. n LETz HImz DecIDEz ...

JUzTZ To LeTZ ALlz Ma pEePZ KNowz.. i MIZz u GUyz sO MuChz.. N aLLZ THA BEzTZ Inz wHAtEvARz U dO! MMMwwwAAacKZ!

n MA HUneYZ ... i wILlz aLwaYZ LUpz n CheRIsHEdz U... U JuzTZ KNowZ Mi TOoz wELlz... HAiz .. iTz HArDz To GEtz a GUYz LIkez u n ITz HArdz 4 Mi To LETz GO ....

-PInKIez SAnORiTAz-

2005-04-23T06:50:00.000-07:00

TAkEnz INz 1960

2005-04-23T06:48:00.000-07:00

HMmz DUnz wAnnaZ bREAkZ YA NEckz !! sO HERez THA REaLz 1's wiTz MA FAvez cOlOURz!!IsHZ! AGAINz i sAyz MA FAcez wIFoUtz MAke Upz! ITz Onz MA MummYz BUrPzdAez!

2005-04-23T02:31:00.000-07:00

mE N HIDAyAhz.. MA CuzzYZ! Ma FaCEZ wIFoUTz MakEz UPz ... JuzTz woKez UPz FRmz sLIPz .. sO HOwZ Iz Itz? UGlyz RITEz?

2005-04-21T19:08:00.000-07:00

MA NEwz PHOnez! wiTz BUiLDz INz mp3, VIdEO edITInz, sHArP cAmERa IMAgInz! wOwz! wEE HEeZ!

2005-04-20T23:13:00.000-07:00

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2005-04-20T03:49:00.000-07:00

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--- PInKIeZ sAnoRITaz ---

2005-04-16T23:59:00.000-07:00

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2005-04-15T23:40:00.000-07:00

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i HAPz tO wEEPz sILENtLyz INz THa NITez?
IZ THiz MA LUCKz?
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i CAntz b BOThErEDz TO TAlkz OR to NEgOCIatEz ..
U KNowZ wHU u r..
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i wILz b aDmITTEdz TO THA MeNTAlZ HOzpITAlz ....
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i wiLLz alwAYz LUPz U...
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hafZ A nIcEZ dayz!!

piNKiEZ SaNOritAZ ...
ADioZ!

2005-04-15T12:29:00.000-07:00

HUneYZ GETz THiz INz Ya HEAdz ...
dUnz THAngz dIFFeREnTLYz ...
evERYz WErdz INz HERez ...
Iz wHatz i REaLlI meANtz ..
i sWEARz!

No other man would ever make me feel so right
Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me,
right next to me
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I gotta let you know
I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know
I think that we are destiny
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I'd do anything
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you baby
Break it down now
I'll tell you what I feel
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My heart seems to skip another beat
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Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
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I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know
I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make itJust ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

--nUTHanGz TO dO... JUztz THiNkINz MA HUneYz n OUrz pROBz 4 BLooDYz 24 HRz .. Y NUrz y ? Iz THiz a TEzTZ? i'Mz JUzTz HAtInz THiz ... LAtaRZ NIteYZ wILlZ UPDatEz To U GUYz! Itz JUzTz 12.29PmZ! wHatz aMZ I sUppOsEDz TO wRITez? iTz GONnaZ b PLAiNZ!! sHHeeeSSShz!

--pInKIEz sAnORITaz aDIOz!

2005-04-14T19:24:00.000-07:00

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--PINkieZ sAnoRITaz OUTz!
LUPz U alLlz! MMmmmWWWAaaaacCCKKkz!!
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Ps: 3 CHeeRz 2 bDKz GREENz DAnCE clUBz!! aLLz THa BEzTZ!
BGss OI!
BGss OI!
BGss OI OI OI!

2005-04-13T20:09:00.000-07:00

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2005-04-13T20:00:00.000-07:00

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2005-02-11T03:48:00.000-08:00

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2005-02-08T03:24:00.000-08:00

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2005-02-06T16:00:00.000-08:00

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-NurZ

2005-02-06T06:04:00.000-08:00

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-NurZ

2Ndz FEb

2005-02-02T05:41:00.000-08:00

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-NURz

10 JAnUArYZ

2005-01-10T21:18:00.000-08:00

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06 JAnz 2005 ...

2005-01-06T19:33:00.001-08:00

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YEzTErdaYZ ....

2005-01-06T13:48:00.000-08:00

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I dUnz MINDz U HeLPiNz YA FWeNz PrOBz ....
I'Mz GLAdz TAtz YA helPINz TheMz BUTz THiz Iz A coUPlez ProBz RITEz??
Offz CouRSEz theYZ CAnz sETTlez THeMselFz CAuzEz TheYZ Arez IN a VERgEz IFz aNGERz n THIz KInDAz PROBz NIdz a 1-2 Dayz OFz THinKINz N COolINz doWNz ....
U SAiDz U wILlz GIpz MI a BIPz BYz 12 oRz 12 TiRTYz ...
I waITEDz N WaITEdz ...
aTz leAzTZ Ifz YA FINisHINgz LATez ... u CUDz BIpz MI AiTEz? TEllz MI YA FInisHIz LATez n I cUdz JUzTz FLYz TO MA DReaMZlAndz ....
wHENz I msGz YA ...
FORz THa SEcOndz TImeZ ...
TheNZ U BIPz N saiDZ Itz NO uSEDz TAlKInz To THeMZ ...
TheYZ FouGHtz aGAInz ..
MIgHtz aZ weLLz U GO HUmz OR MItz GeTUKz ONcEz He FIniZ Tha FOuGHtz N TAlkz TO HIMz RItEz??
NiwaYZ HUneyZ ..
waTZ I aMZ aNGRyz Iz TAtz ..
U makEz MI waitz ..
TatZ sOO iRReSpoNsIBlez OFz U ....
i Amz NOtz TryInz TO B PAtHeTIcz ...
BUtz JUztZ HOpeZ I dUNz waNNaz U To dO THIz agAInz ..
THiz iz NOTz Tha FIRzTz Or secOndz TImeZ DEarZ ..
PLeaSEz sYGz ..
NO MOrez OFz tHiz NonsenSEz ...

I wiLLz alwAYz LUPz U ...
NO maTTErz waTz U HAdz DOnez TO Mi ..
THIz Iz JuZtz a sMAllz PrOBz ...
LETz JUzTZ foRgeTZ Itz aITez??

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LIFez sEEmz UNpREdIctAblez TO MI suMtIMez ...
ManYz THanGz HAz BeeNZ HAPpeNInz IN n BETwEEnz MA lIFez ....
UneXpeCTeDZ THaNGz bEEnz HeaRDz...
I aMZ cONfusEdz ...
Iz THiz THA stOryz TAtz I sHUdz LiZteNz To aLLz Ma LIfez??
wHENZ WilLZ Tha POTraItz OfZ MA HAppYz FAmIlYz BEenz PAinTEdz wiTz FlYInz ColOurz??
I woNdeRZ ....

I Amz BLeSSEdz wITz a GUYz TAtz EvERYz GAlz DREamZ...
MA ONeZ n ONlyZ HUNeYZ BArNeyZ ....
He GuiDEz Me TrU MA LIFEz ...
i dUNz KNowZ waTZ GOnnAz HaPpenz tO MI wIFOUtz HIMz rITez NOwZ ....